if i want to

so right now, i'm currently listening to what could be my new summer mix cd for my car .. yeah, i have old songs mixed in right now, and yeah, i should be doing my homework .. but i just finished writing a philosophy paper, and i still have a commentary to do .. so right now, i just want to take a little break because i did pretty kick ass on my last philosophy paper thanks to the creativity of jopapa and a certain 511. anyways .. tensions have been running a little high here in the family household .. GOD only knows why [yes, the GOD that i proved that existed `;P] and i think i just need some time alone to rejuvenate and get my thoughts back in order. i was feeling pretty jumbled after this past week, and it's nice to come back to some kind of normal -- even though it's kind of mundane and repetitive every week. though, summer classes do end in about 2 weeks .. holy smokes .. and my 2nd philosophy paper is due on monday. crunch time again, kids! wow. but i guess pressure's good, and i actually have time to put together a good bs again that's another 1000 words. yeeeah boy. =)
i had a pretty eventful weekish since the last time i updated .. for one thing, i got my first taste of freedom/independence/youthfulness when i hit up the city with the whole crew for gillian's 21st. 21.. holy smokes, i still remember having sweet 16s. anyways, contrary to what is the common belief about he-said-she-said -- i did have a good time; it all came down to being tired and getting in trouble. but anyways, yeah .. i don't know when or if i'll ever be able to do something like that again .. at least i can say that i did it once, at least i can say i reveled in the recklessness of my youth.. pulling an all-nighter and not sleeping and enjoying the company of my peers. =] so whatever you heard, whatever someone said, let's set the record straight -- there are no hard feelings and i appreciate the fact that i was invited and allowed to go and had the opportunity to exeperience what i did. if i could do it again -- yeah, now that i think about it, sure i would .. maybe i might do some things differently, but hey. you only life once, and you're only young once. so on that note, i had a good time. there you go.
so, really, the worst thing about being on summer vacation is that i have a lot of time to sit and think about things. haha. today i ran away from home -- only to jenn's house, don't freak out lol -- and had a chill out session with my cousin. i swear, she is the frickin bomb greatest in the world.. maybe you don't really get it because you don't really have family who's mostly within a 5 mile radius from you -- but my family rocks. did i mention that? i don't know what i would do without them. for all of the craziness i endure and for everything that goes on in my life -- my family has always been there for me .. even more so now that i'm growing up and it's all starting to level and i'm finally becoming an adult or some shit like that. who knows. but yeah .. my cousins are what it is, gangsters. they are by far, the coolest people in the world. without question. no one on this planet has my back like they do.. or knows how to set me straight like they do. so jenn helped me think through things .. i'm still a little confused about what i'm supposed to do or say or where i'm supposed to go with everything .. but hopefully everything works out. and when i came back from jenn's, i was glad that some of the tension i was feeling at home finally broke. maybe because i have school and work tomorrow anyways .. time to be responsible again .. ahahaha .. which reminds me, i need to cut back on the spending, people, because i won't have any money to go on vacation with. shit, let's look for coverage, no? let's! well anyways, i intended to write a really long ass entry here, because i haven't really been updating, but i guess, this is all i have to say. when i have more, you know i'll be writing again. but before i go, i hope you all like my new layout. =) i haven't changed it in a while, but since it's summer and all, i had to make a summer layout. yeah, it's kind of plain, but i finally centered the stupid thing after playing with codes for 2 hours. lol. i'll think of a better banner soon .. you know me and my fickleness with the layouts .. haha. well i hope you all have a good night, i need to freshen up and prepare for sleep and .. the NBA game tonight? or maybe the world cup. whatever, some sporting event. haha. catch you all on the flip side kids -- sweet dreams ;)



<3 to:
joe aka jopapa; oh mr. buble is quite awesome. "oh my love please tell me when."
christine aka the homie; oh love, you rock.
bestfriend in the universe jackie; i love how we can feel the vibe. it's nuts and you kick ass.