codigo

well, at least, that's what i should be doing, no .. yeah .. finals suck, i should be studying, but i'm such a lazy ass and instead i am putting up some usless information once again on my weblog. yeyeeeeaaahh .. tomorrow is the last day of classes for my sophomore year .. i'm so f-in old it's not even funny .. yesterday when i was talking to christine we realized that we were so old.. her little brother is a frickin man now, what the hell, when i met him 5 years ago he was 'yeay' high.. like short, forreals.. and now he's frickin big like a man, and he went to his sophomore semi .. damn, i still remember sophomore semi .. back in high school, back when abbygail couldn't talk yet, when she was 1 yr old.. and now she's going into kindergarten next fall.. the fck, it was that long ago? where did my time go? here i am trying to waste it away writing in here instead of using it to study .. oh wells, not like i can go back and take the time and junk to study .. argh, i'm so lazy, and tired, and out of it, wow .. i should uhhh .. drink some coffee or something, damn. and i still have to study for systems physiology .. oh yeah, statistics too.. ahhhhh books, go away, finals, go away .. a[wiyjwlkjtwl;a i want some bubble tea or something, my eating habits are so erratic, i have work tomorrow early.. like ass early .. damn .. i need money too.. tell me why the gas is like $12093182031982 .. can't even afford to go anywhere .. it's frickin equivalent to a pair of dunks .. for serious, like 1 pair dunks = 1 tank of gas .. that's sick. but anyways, so this is what i did in a nutshell, in pictures, because i am too lazy to write about it in a more descriptive, imaginative manner hehehe..

it was my last full week of school. man, don't you just love serc. yay classroom


me and homie are extra cool because we went the whole year and met up just about every week to bullshit around and have a good time. i love this chick


this is the junk food we basically engaged in every week


so then on thursday i had a change of pace and went to this snazzy office building thing with annie, leo and ml to dance slow tinikling and teach some little kids. what a snazzy room they gave us to get ready


and then i went to systems physiology and the power went out in the whole building for about 15 mins. me and supersam should have left. but then it came back on


and then afterwards i went to the SAC to go to FIC coffeehouse. i sure love being acoustic.. and JESUS ..


liz is the coolest. her stalker status is so on it's just acknowledged now. she didn't even notice that i took a picture of her. she was mesmerized by her boytoy's singing. =) lol

and then friday was rutgersfest and i was squished in the audience but that's okay because i got to see common, ginuwine and ok go. common is the coolest. some girl was grinding on me in the audience thinking that common was gonna pick her. silly lady. no one cares what you think. bwahaha. ana and tim were standing next to us too. tim doesn't like ok go music. lol. and then my camera was getting tired and the alkaline batteries i bought died on me and made my camera act like it had some viral infection. but it's okay now, i put the regular batteries back in. silly batteries .. and i went out to eat with christine and charles and we had some crappy service, but that's okay. i don't understand how i could get this slushy it wasn't even slushy. it was just like, wacked up miniature pieces of ice. it wasn't even like halo-halo ice. what a waste. and then i got home, and i was pretty beat. then i stayed up all night and i couldn't sleep. but that's okay .. because i didn't mind ..

and then it was saturday and i didn't really do anything meaningful with myself except visit mary, go to church, and try to get some studying done. especially practicing my microscopic writing for orgo. and then i stayed up all night again .. and i couldn't sleep .. it was cold as hell last night, i had like 2 shirts on and 3 blankets and i was freezing my ass off because we turned off the heat. i sure could have used some bodily warmth or something .. frickin new jersey weather ..

and now, it is sunday, and i feel like even more of a lazy ass. wow, i'm assed out from all of this good-time good-time. i guess it's sign that i have to go back to reality ..
hello orgo, i know you can't wait to enjoy your last moments of being my boyfriend. but i'm breaking it off, i've found someone way better. someone who doesn't make me feel like i suck at life and give me panic attacks. thanks for always being there for me, though, i could just carry your electric-blue covered paperheavy-ness everywhere i go, and for haunting me in my dreams with your carbon chains. i'll never forget you. i hope the next person you try to get with will appreciate you more. and actually like your benzene rings.

well, i'm done. good bye lovers and friends ..

<3 to:
eddie; i'm sad because you are graduating. thanks for being one of my coolest friends ever. =) i guess my camera enjoyed your beautiful face just as much as you enjoyed taking the funny pictures. haha. we definitely have to cheel again.
bestfriend jackie; oh yes. smooth like marble tile. or smoothies.
joe aka jopapa; too cool for school jopapa-ness, i would like some more sour patch watermelons too. yay candy.
marielle; nanay sure does know best. another shirt to add on my 'need to get' list. =)
star; haha, yeah, there are a lot of happenings on campus i guess, i just realized .. i actually don't go to a lot of them. haha. i just make it seem like i do because it's when i have interesting stuff to say. college is pretty busy during the semester.. especially at the beginning and the end. i'm glad you liked our 'uniform'.. haha


<3

there's too many cute ones here to be mad

quote of the moment;
kristen: shiet, we're f-cked.
this chick is awesomenessss. and we found those coconuts too. haha

hehehe .. well, anyways, yesterday, was the beloved barrio fiesta, and yes, i know, i'm like, totally early with the whole weekly updating thing, but oh wells, sucks to be you. hehe. after all the practicing and all the nights i spent at lucy stone thinking that, you know, shiet, we're so gonna die; i'm so going to look like an ass in front of 500 people. but you know, GOD really does work in mysterious ways.. and so do people .. and even though i really hate working under pressure, we always manage to do a fabulous job and kick ass in cultural dancing and et cetera. and as you can see, i just happen to accidentally be color coordinated with my free lime green tee-shirt that matches the lime greenness of my watermelon colored shoes. lols! and even though i was ass tired from doing the fast ass tinikling 5-6 times in a row, it was a great time. i mean what can beat being on fake wowowee with fake sexbomb girl dancers? who knows. though, it sucks that we always have to be so last minute about things .. we waste so much time doing nothing that we could have been using to do other more important things .. like sleeping! haha. but i guess, bonding time is important, and people always learn from their mistakes, or lackthereof. in the end, i realized that no one could ever take the place of my beloved RCDT .. we have been through craploads of crap together and have stressed a lot together, but have always been there through it all. i don't know what's going to happen next year.. if we're still gonna be a 'troupe' .. or maybe we'll have to disband or something .. who knows, but i've enjoyed the past 2 years i've been involved with it. GOD only knows what's in store for all of us. and i learned that making new friends is the best! haha. it just sucks that we can't make these new friends earlier in life, since some of the new friends i made are graduating .. i didn't even get a chance to cheel with them long enough.. and a good number of new friends i made are older than me. but maybe it's all part of our destinies.. and partially due to our circumstances. [after all, i am still only a sophomore, don't you know.] and maybe, if i met them earlier in life, it wouldn't be the same type of friendship or something that i enjoy right now. finally, i realized that i could honestly maybe not be an actress; some of the scenes in the play would make me crack up if i had to act like that. i guess, we'll just have to wait for next year's barrio play. and i'm gonna miss all the seniors/superseniors/older heads leaving .. i always felt like that graduating year [aka, the class 2 years ahead of me] was the coolest. even in high school, i thought they were an awesome class. don't even ask me why. haha. then again, i'll have a class 2 years behind me coming in too next year .. maybe i'll feel the same way about them too. after all, it is mary's class. lol. what else .. oh yeah. i just love a guy with a talent. especially if they make friends with me. heehee ..

well after all that craziness, and watching vince die and dante come back to philippines to see ana and go to his funeral and then ana sings and stuff like that.. the play ends and there was some junk fun after the show was done. haha. then, i was debating whether to go out afterwards and chill with the peoples, but eh, they convinced me to.. and who can resist skylark diner, my most favorite new restaurant of rt 1 which is right by my house that plays awesome club music that makes you want to dance right in the middle of the restaurant with the waiters looking at you and the other patrons wondering, what the hell is up with these filipino-asian people and their bright ass green tee-shirts?! hahaha. aye so! =) and i tried a new dessert there .. mmmm yummy brownie with ice cream. and french fries yeay! and then i was even more tired and then then i decided to go home and s-l-e-e-p while people went to get their drink on i guess? whatevs. haha. it's time to go back to normal now; i can't believe how fast my year is going by. it's already finals time! sheeesh. i guess, school tends to go by faster when you're older because not much physical or emotional change really happens between the years compared to elementary or even high school. though, at this point of my college career, i can successfully say that i have finally found my comfort zone here, feeling like i can handle myself and handle forming social connections with people and not feel threatened or overwhelmed like i have to prove something. it sure took me a long time to get to this point.. for so long i was so focused to just make it through school in one piece and live up to every expectation i held to myself. but i learned not to take everything so seriously .. of course i still want to do as well as possible.. but sometimes you just gotta learn that you're normal like everyone else and to not take your experiences and friendships in college for granted. because then you suddenly have to work and get old and may never see some of these cool people ever again. damn. which reminds me, i should call my friend jay; i haven't spoken to him in so long, i hope he doesn't think i'm a bitch for failing on my part to keep in touch with him. shiet ..

anyways, i guess this is where i'm gonna wrap things up. i felt like i had more to say, but then i went to sleep last night and i forgot it all. haha. sorry ! =)

yeay for the box step. it's my favorite move ..

RAPS barrio fiesta `06

um, the end.

<3 to:
joe aka jopapa; my blade of grass got stepped on and now he can't get his 36 mg of awesomeness. darn .. lol .. i sure could use some chocolate again .. ^_^
bestfriend jackie; hehehe. don't worry i'll have pics for you girl! and one day, i'll show you all the good shit. =) love ya miss ya!

if it's worth your while then say something

well, i knew that i was due for an update now, or else i would be going back on my weekly blogging traditions, and since i feel like i have an extra couple of hours to kill [this whole daylight savings time is putting me in a jones of what time it really is.. it was nearing 7:30 pm and there was still bright light outside] i felt like, why don't i just blog now, even though i don't really have much to say .. eventually, i guess, i'd just ramble on and on, add a few pictures here and there, and presto! i'd already have completed my task of what i wanted to say. or maybe i actually have a lot of things to say i just don't know how to say them. so i'll say them here. haha .. well anyways, so yesterday, there was a bunch of protesters everywhere camping out on the lawn on college ave.. and usually i think they're really weird .. i just think sometimes protesters are weird in general.. but those protesty-people are who really get the shit done in this world .. if you really think about it. there have been plenty a moment where i felt like i really wanted to change the world, make a difference, be a super hero to the less fortunate and the exploited, disrupt the realm of normalcy to put some spice and excitement into the world .. et cetera, but when it really comes down to it, i'm a pretty lazy ass because i'd rather be sleeping than joining the protesters and stuff like that. but if i don't do anything, and you don't do anything, who will? and that's the sad and crappy part. in our weekly/monthly/whatever mass emailings we get from the university, i found out that the massive budget cut that the governor is planning for this fine state of ours might potentially increase my tuition upwards of $5,000. now, yeah, some universities are already charging that amount, and rutgers is pretty cheap in the first place, but come on. $5,000 is a lot of cheese. like as in, A LOT. 1039810293810923 people go to this fine instititution of mine, you gotta cut us a break. we're known for good studies and stuff like that, can't you see that governor! HOY! i'm talking to you. i'm not much of a phone person, what can i say, but here's my part to the protest. i know we're in a deficit and all, but i think fixing the highways can wait so that we can get our education on! man! it's a scary thought to have your tuition increased like that in a hot minute. and of course, there are lots of other pertinent issues going on in our world, and granted, yeah, we should all take part and get involved and all.. but i guess, there's just not enough time in the world to do everything. sadly, some things must get sacrificed. sadness.. sadness..

this past weekend was holy week, all i can say is, YAY GOD! =) so i went to church 102938102938 times for it; even though it was getting annoying in the end [i think that's the americanized 2nd generation youth in me] i was grateful that i could church around with my parents; because probably this was the only year that i could successfully do it since i didn't have school Good Friday and all. so Good Friday, i think i went to about 12 churches, you know how the visita iglesia tradition goes, and then i went to easter vigil mass. surprisingly, my mom said that she had enough church-ing for a weekend, and we didn't go to mass on easter sunday like we usually do. so instead, we just chilled, and then, went to our traditional lunch at auntie josie's house with the family and etc.. spent 7 hours doing nothing, but i guess, that's what it's all about. yeeeaaahhh. lol. though i did have an intense session of fake pictionary with cherry to keep her company .. she sure does know how to draw a great fern. lol. and of course, one of the most intense scrabble games ever:

check out our gangster scrabble board. haha

and of course, saw my kuya jayson; i swear he's like almost famous. haha. and his spectacular shoes that he always flaunts [as you can tell, being partial to sneakers is in my blood lol] and his sneaker design that is in the making that is so top secret, i can't even post it up.

one piece dunks. yeeahhh ..

and after that, i felt my public-school-ness because i had to go to school the next day while all of my cousins/relatives in catholic school had the week off. oh well.. that's okay, i have practice for barrio fiesta, which leads me to my plug plug plug! lol.

so let's see, what are you doing this saturday? nothing? fabulous.
are you capable and able to come to rutgers university? you are? splendid!
do you have $10 to spare? last 10 bucks in your wallet? i love it.
don't worry, there's food that comes with the show. =)

editation!
here's the complete [as in, straight from leo LOL] information:

Barrio Fiesta

Saturday, April 22nd

Lucy Stone Hall Auditorium
Livingston Campus

Dinner & Show
Tix on sale @ 5:30PM
Dinner served
show starts around 7pm
Tickets- $10

i hope you like bamboo sticks and booty shaking. and singing. because that's what we do.
and there's some wowowee-type thing if you like that. hehehe.

so COME! OKAY! YOU BETTER BE THERE. i better see you! okay okay okay? promise?
pleeease [that is, with a cherry on top and sprinkles and wildberry nerds and chocolate chips!]

and well, that's the end of my entry. updation again when i have more good stuff to say .. haha ..

<3 to:
CF; happy 1st blog-anniversary! miss you lots!
joe aka jopapa; i thought i saw timur-uglyface at the computer lab and i was going to go up to him and tell him how ugly he was but i think i could have gotten fired because my boss was there. darn.
bestfriend jackie; you frickin rock. i love the 2am chats. "it's only 10:30 here." ahahahaha
star; haha those are my 2 friends gillian and marielle. all i can say is that we have very, very similar romantic histories. haha.

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hiiiiiiiiiii everybody! wow, finally, i can finally update after my 2 weeks of bitch crapness. lol. i was gonna update a while ago but you know, i felt guilty writing a nice long blog when i could be studying. yeah yeah yeah .. but now, i'm going to take a well-deserved break from all of that academia. phew!

so anyways, this past week was pretty bitchin. if you kept up with my xanga, yeah, that's where it said all the shit. lol. the end of lab finally came on wednesday and thursday, and after all the stress from the 12093812093821 lab reports i had to do and the early thursday mornings trying to figure out what chemicals we were going to mess up wasn't so bad after all. once i get the hang of it, lab isn't bad. if i didn't have to write so much shit about it i think i would actually like it. well, i have one more post lab to BS to the max since i didn't form crystals in our benzoin condensation, but oh well. it's so hard to give 2 craps about lab when you take your exam before the last one. lol. but hey, you gotta do what you gotta do. i got through my orgo immersion pretty .. err.. okay i guess, i hate it when i study hard for shit and then i get the exam and i'm just like, WHAT.. the FCK .. is this .. wow, it was pretty bad. then my parents scolded me and the computer for spending too much quality time together.. so i ran away from home .. to mary's house, of course. lol. and i learned that social relationships are more important than learning all my formulas. life is not all about books, of course. =) i wish i had more to say about this whole mega examination experience, but i'm really just assed out and happy that it's over. haha. anyways, i have class today, like usual, so the learning continues. haha.

so, besides all the learning and exams, i had some fun junk to go to. and though i have the capacity to say hundreds of thousands of words and tell you a descriptive story, i believe the pictures will speak better for me. haha. so this is where the picture heavy part of my blog comes in. don't worry, i'll be talking along with it. =)

well, friday; was my last debut of this highschool-college era! it was my dear friend nicole's 18th birthday celebration, complete with cotillion and all the works. i'm kind of sad, i missed the waltz part of the cotillion, it's like my favorite dance, but oh wells. i liked their modern best of all.. i guess you never can get tired of 18 kids doing a hip hop dance. again, too bad i couldn't be a cotillion whore .. you know what? i thought of, maybe one day we should have college cotillion. just for fun! hey, you all know you were in one sometime in your life. plus, it all gives us excuses to dress up in formal regalia. who doesn't love that? =) [click to enlarge the pictures ^_^]

the celebrant chillen and cooling down


nicole's baby blue/pink modern


the triple ex's.
what do these 3 lovely ladies have in common? ehhehe.


me and homie always manage to take nice pics together. =)


the other half of our table -- the theme family maderal brothers!
who of course, were gracious enough to take all of our pictures. haha


one of nicole's friends who thought he was cute enough to be in my camera. lol..
i however, look busted in this picture. haha


angelo and i after the festivities

the next day; was my ate's baby shower! wow, i can't believe she's going to have another kid already. lol. i still remember when my godson was born, and how we almost couldn't visit them in the hospital because my mom didn't have photo id and i had to bust out my ghetto plastic school picture id that got us in. yeeeah! but anyways, i felt too young to be at the party, i don't really get what it means to be a new parent, but jenn said that eventually i'd understand.

my godson eating lumpia


me, angelo, mary, and abbygail [ineng] sitting around


jenn's basket with the kick-ass bow i made


yay baby presents


cute!


what a convenient table. lol

and of course, the next day was crap orgo exam, and then yesterday, had more school. i met up with my filipino studies hard-core groupies [wayne, maryann, and ana] and we talked about how we're gonna start a revolution sometime soon. i hope this all works out, and we fulfill wayne's dream of becoming google.. haha.. and make a mark on this planet. it just sucks that the level of interest to get this pushed through only rests within the 4 of us, but i guess, it's better than zero, right? and i realized that this was what college was all about.. meeting people who open up your mind! forreals. sometimes i think i should have majored in sociology. i find it so interesting forreals.

umm, this was basically a picture entry. hahaha. all this stuff going on just makes me feel so tired. lol. this week, i've got practice today, and then it's holy week too. so, yeah, I LOVE GOD! hehe. church, visita iglesia, easter vigil [if we're in the mood] and of course, easter. mmmm .. easter candy .. easter bunnies .. ^_^

til next time, when i have something more important to say. haha

and for my friend joe, here is one of my nostalgic sweet sixteen pictures. haha

featuring my cousin alvin! yeah!

<3 to:
star; aw, thanks! i try my best to be sweet and loving =) haha, yeah, i'm trying to make time for myself now. all those exams were getting to me. thanks for caring!
joe aka jopapa; you're special you awesome KP you, you get 2 props for 2 comments. ^_^ everyone go check out his blogspot. yeeeeeah!
miss marielle; 2 for 2 for you too! ^_^ you sure showed me a good time baby! hehe. next stop -- the CLUB, son! h2O on the rocks is the shit!
bestfriend jackie; it's SENT! i'm not sure if you got it yet, but it's in the hands of the USPS. lolsss. let me know when you get it! =)

peace out kids!