someone to set my heart free

Dear Roman, (the rabbit)

I am so sorry that we had a rocky start to our relationship. But know that you are a wonderful bunny, and I've enjoyed the moments that we have had together. I wish we had more time together to build our relationship, and I wish my parents could appreciate you the way I learned how to. Thank you for letting me pet you and for your crazy bunny hops.. even how you hopped out of the pen and I kind of freaked out. I'm sorry. You deserved to run around our house. I am really going to miss you when you have to go back to the other foster home. Fuck, I can't even finish this fake letter to the rabbit because it makes me want to cry..

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So I got really depressed because my mother is so anti-rabbit that she really "WAS NOT OKAY" with having him here for the past 4 days. She was horrible. She refused to look at it or even try to get to know it. At least my dad pointed and laughed at it. I don't know if I could ever forgive her for being so mean to him. I feel like I learned a lot about myself and about taking care of others when I had him. It was hard work but it was rewarding when he would let me pet him on the tack while he was chillin out watching TV.

I think it might take me a while to get over it ..

i will never be your stepping stone

UGHHHH .. what a terrible time to be a pharmacy student ..

Even when you don't have exams, you have projects .. dumb projects to do, why? I don't know why. I'm not in the 8th grade anymore .. I rather wish I was, working with Jackie is sooo much more fun, making plays about Y2K. haha.

People in college doing group projects is no good, yo. Even if this is a buttload of work I'd rather do projects myself, or at least with people who have coordinated enough of a schedule with me so that we meet enough times and not half ass it at the end. No offense to my friends .. but srsly guys, we should have met a while ago!

My guy friends are really good about meeting, and about online chatting; which apparently is a very ingenious way of getting things done.

Recently I had some drama with a project that bordered on Bon-Qui-Qui esque. Ohhhhh I could have cut someone, for serious in real life. But I think being angry sometimes gives me more energy to direct towards my work, towards making it better because I know I can. But if I ever get screwed like that again I know I will cut a bitch. My mom says to let it go, you know, but damn ..

Anyways, I just want it to be Spring Break .. I hope I get to foster a baby bunny, because even though I don't get to go to Miami, at least I get to play with a baby bunny for the week and give it my love and attention. Yippie! Plus, I'm hitting up the city as usual with the homie for another museum adventure and waffle eating. Too bad we won't stay at a hotel .. I really wanted to check out that Dream hotel I peeped some time ago. Maybe when the best-est comes .. yeah? Probs .. like it.

Did I mention I'm going to go see Robin Thicke on Good Friday? Ironic .. don't worry Jesus, I promise I'll go to Church before the concert and on Holy Saturday too. and Easter. YEAH! Sucks if I have work .. BOO! That would be most awkward. Maybe I can ask if I can go into work late .. but we'll worry about that later.

Well time for bed. Good night, moon!