see right clear like you're bathing in windex

well since i have some time to kill before my next interview today on community interview day, i thought i would finally, finally write in my blog and update you all, faithful and not so faithful readers, on the status of my life and i'm so SO SO close to graduating. THIS CLOSE! [ ] (that's the sign for this close. you didn't know? LOL)

Anyways I have been on my clinical in Trenton and let me tell you it's some serious jones. I'm tired like alllllllll the time. Today I finally got to escape from having to go down to the hospital for the whole day by signing up for interviews at the school and now I'm here at the library doing nothing.. well attempting to do my presentation but I left that at home so now I'm just reading the article that I have to talk about tomorrow. SHIT, it's tomorrow! But I digress.

Trenton isn't as bad as Viv made it out to be.. I mean it did have its crappy moments especially all the times my not-preceptor ripped us all apart. I guess it was okay in the end, we did learn a lot, but learning by threats isn't always fun. Especially when you have fear all the time! Rounding with the doctors was a great learning experience too.. I don't know if I have the guts/confidence to make recommendations like Anna does, but it is my first time. So yeah.. It's crazy that the doctors come from all over the world and they were like top-notch but they have to start from the bottom. I guess even the best somewhere isn't the best everywhere, right? Things started to get really hectic at the end especially with all the presentations and interviews and this and that. I am going to miss my friends terribly when we go our separate ways but hopefully, hopefully! we'll stay in touch.. I saw my one classmate that I rotated with in NYC randomly yesterday and I wanted to say hi but he all up and vanished. Oh well, maybe next time..

After going to the residency thing yesterday it got me thinking about maybe I want to do residency now. It's weird because when I'm in Trenton sometimes the last thing I want to do is graduate only to have 2 more years of clinicals to do. 2 more years of being someone's bitch! To me that sucks because sometimes, I just want to make some money and be done with the whole, feeling like I'm not in charge feeling yet. Plus, there's this match-thing that you have to do and it makes me feel like I'm signing my life away. What if I change my mind? What if a better opportunity comes? What if I don't even want to be a pharmacist anymore and all I want to do is sell puppies or ice cream or shoes or what!? What then!

HAHAHA .. I have successfully wasted about an hour of my time. NICE

To Be Continued ..