number 1 smash hit

well since it is summer, here is another random entry ! yay. hehe. first off i've got to say,

happy independence day!

since you know, it is 4th of july and all, i'm just kind of sad that i don't really get to watch fireworks this year and plus, it's raining ish outside. too bad so sad .. but oh well, i do have a philosophy final to study for that right now, i'm really not. where's my motivation -- holy crap, i totally fell asleep in class yesterday. O.0 hehehehe. it was pretty bad. i still think that one time with the dude who was our substitute .. that was the best class. too bad he wasn't our lecturer from the start. but oh well .. it's starting to sunny up outside, which is good .. i can go out and re-warm myself because it is cold in my house. then again, yay for air conditioning! yayayay. LOL, i really don't have anything good to say in my blog right now .. i think i'm really just rambling on and on. i kind of wanted to go to atlantic city today .. or some day .. something about altantic city feels like summer to me .. even though it's pretty dirty down there. dirty food and dirty casinos. except the borgata .. that's hella nice. mmmmm. that and six flags. nothing beats riding roller coasters in 80 degree weather and sweating and stuff like that. oh summer .. i want a slurpee too. and a new swimsuit. and a new bag, and some sunblock .. shorts for sleeping .. damn, i'll be spending mad moneys this month. especially on vacation! what what! okay since i don't have anything good to say i'll just post up pictures because that is what i meant to do. hahahaha .. so to better explain what has happened in the past couple of days since i wrote, i shall use picture form! ever so useful, no? =) click to enlarge! =)

i'm sorry gil, but this guy is really hot. ^_^ really, really ..


sneaking into the picture, are we?


fire hazardly blocking the way to the counter


i think these people are awesome. yay fusion!


fobby peace signs!


updated most wanted. yeahhh boy! be jealous.

well anyways, that is how i have been spending my summer vacation. =] and one more thing, yeah, it's pretty bad when parts of my entries are really angry, but whatever, i feel like i should have to say this because someone won't and i think they should, but i know they can't because they're too nice to do it which is what makes them really awesome in the first place. it's really f*cked up how some people can treat other people. especially when it's to really awesome people. why they gotta be like that? that's not fair. who thinks that they have the right to be like they're the shit and that they have the right to rule the world. excuse, me, uh, no? because you're garbage! GARBAGE! did i stutter? no! because you're GARBAGE!

all i gotta say is that don't ever f*ck around with me, my family or my friends. yeah i'm only 5'1'' but i have the capacity to kick your ass. people say this all the time, but i promise you, i will follw through. i will take my eskrima stick and i will bust your ass in front of all your dumb friends and those dumb ugly guys who think you're awesome. because they're dumb too! like i learned in philosophy, maybe they have some inverted spectrum problem! yeah, i know i've been treated pretty shitty myself, and didn't really do anything. and yeah, i really don't like to pick fights with people because i believe violence is wrong. but you know what else? i'm a lover and a fighter. i don't take shit from anyone, especially some stupid ass bitch who thinks she's the shit. yeah, alright. don't even play with me. you're crap! there will always be people that i just don't like in this world, and don't even tell me all their freakin good qualities. i don't buy into that garbage. hell, i'm getting too old for all this shit, but it's pretty bad how these stupid ass people act! IT MAKES ME REALLY PISSED OFF AND I WILL NOT HESITATE TO FLIP A BITCH. really. i don't like to wish death on people because that is neither right nor fair, but i know damn well that i hope you suffer! that's right. i hope you fail and cry and then you experience the pain that i went through for 2 years. because i heard where you're going.. and you know what! i won't hesitate to LAUGH IN YOUR FACE! and then you don't know what to do because you would be such a failure! and you suck at life! a LOT! and then you realize just how dumb you are! because you're dumb! DUMB! and and and! don't talk about my boyfriend like you're better because you're crap! CRAP!

amidst all that, i still pull the whole silence thing. hey, i learned it from my parents, what can i say. haha. and obviously, it works. lol. but anyways, i am done being angry. my emotional expense-- even my anger -- is not worth being wasted on these childish, crappy people. because i love my friends! and i love mary and gabe and mike, my mom and my dad, and my best friend in the universe, and my homie, and the breathing mechanisms of the fish, and .. ^_^

well okay i am done! sorry if you think that was directed towards you, if you do, you're probably wrong about that. so anyways! time to study for real. .. psh, yeah, okay ..

<3 to:
gillian; aww thanks gil! i love your comment! =) it's rough at times, but i know the time will come when it will be over. i hope. hehe
bestfriend jackie x2; hehehe you're the greatest. thanks for always listening, especially that one time when i didn't realize you had free nights yet because of the 3 hr thing. ^_^ and mahal kita din! =D