happy birthday mom!

well of course first i have to wish happy happy happy birthday to my mom! =) yes, today is my parent's birthday, a superb one too -- she got all the warm weather and sunshine today, and plus, it's doctor appreciation day; since my mom's a doctor, she gets double the props. hot! so of course, since it's my mom's birthday and her favorite thing to do is hang out with me [lol] i stayed home and had some quality time with my parents. heeh. we went around, ate at skylark diner, visited rin-rin and her new baby mayumi, and then just spent the rest of the day at home. it was so nice out that i couldn't pass up the perfect day to finally clean my car .. it hasn't been cleaned since last semester and it was looking pretty sad. so i busted all the works out .. soap up and polish up, vacuum.. and i know guys really like to take care of their cars, but girls can have mad love for their cars too. especially me. man, i just love looking at my car after i clean it. it's so sweet! so hopefully, it better be sunny for a good while when i go out driving because my car is awesomely clean. and i'm frickin tired now from all that wax on wax off thing .. i felt like i was the next karate kid with mr. miyagi. lol.

so, today, i refuse to study anything at all for the whole day. after studying hard core for more than a week, not to mention going to all my classes [that's right, i don't skip class to study for exams. =P] i am all textbook/notes/learning-ed out. i finally got my statistics, physiology, and sociology exams out of the way .. and now, starting tomorrow, i have to go on a supreme orgo [aka organic chemistry] love fest. i've got labs to do, a lab exam, a lab, a quiz in lecture, and an exam for lecture .. wow. orgo is some boyfriend -- he's always there for me but never gives me any good lovin'. hahaha .. just joking, i just hope that i kill this exam because it's my last chance to pull it out in this class. i can't believe my semester only has about a month left. where did the time go?! and what did i do with my life!? haha. i kinda miss how in high school, our exams were spread out because being the bright and intelligent kids that we were in the honors program, all our teachers knew us by name and we all had the same exact schedules .. so we always managed to pull the leverage so as to not schedule exams -- err, tests on the same day. but now, rutgers couldn't care less if you were in a state of panic, your exam is when it is. sheesh .. haha. but i'm not going to study today or tonight .. i need a frickin break. yikes .. one more week of hell. just one more week! :screams:

this week; was eh -- you know. full of exams. haha. but! i did start my first day of work this week at the computer lab @ arc. man, i never knew how crazy things got in the morning there.. and being on the other side helps me to empathize when i go and use the computers at the lab. so, yes, i am a working student! i always thought working students were so cool because they would always sound so busy and committed, and of course have money and some sort of baller status. now, i get to join this elite group of employed college people. nice. though, i'm still the president of broke ass ho incorporated, since i only work 3 hrs, i make about one andrew jackson a week. haha. hey, it's a start. =) and then, monday was also my last hip-hop class. :sadness: i'm going to miss going to it every monday. well, maybe next year i'll take it again .. but then again, i want to take something new. maybe .. ballroom? just like take the lead! wow, i still want to see that movie. i missed the free pre-screening for rutgers students last weekend because i had to be a loser and study. and no one to go with. lol. oh well .. it's okay .. not every day i go see a movie, so i don't mind paying, i guess. haha. so, who wants to go with me now? ^_^ then, thursday, went to eskrima -- learned some kind of a ninja roll .. chyeah i'm cool `;D and some grappling -- err, well, self-defense tactics to me, because i'm scared to grapple. and spar. and engage in fierce combat. lol. why am i in eskrima again? LOL, joke! it's fun =D and now, here we are at friday, home chillen. =) i think i want to start swimming at the pool at the gym at school .. and i think i just typed it to remind myself that i want to do it .. haha .. so, yeah. still working on that goal to be a pussycat doll. like for serious, they are my idols. haha. well now i am kind of tired and have nothing else to say. i think i want to go to sleep early .. and finish some other shit. okay, i'll catch you all on the flip side lovers and friends. peeeeeeace.

"i like filipinos. they're asian, but not cocky about it." -- karen, from will&grace

<3 to:
joe aka jopapa; yes, color coordination shall be my specialty. haha.
jess; i miss you! i hope PSU is treating you well. we really have to catch up soon! =)
star; awww thanks! =) you're awesome! take care!
bestfriend jackie; ahahahahahaha x1000. :-D you crack me up! my letter is coming soon. for seeerious .. `;D

i don't want to be a stupid girl

hello lovers and friends. so it is friday once again, and as is in my weekly blogging tradition, i am here to update you on the statuses of my life. i'm loving all the feedback i'm getting every week .. it's flattering to see that people actually read your shit. lol. =) but anyways .. so it's the first week back from spring break and i'm just glad that i don't have any exams this week. lol. but then again, yeah, i've begun to study my brains out for the madness coming in the next 2 weeks. someone please help me i think i'm going into brain overload. i think the whole time management thing is really kicking in and kicking in reeeal soon. lol. rcdt practice is bound to happen soon .. apparently we're performing for the barrio fiesta/play/performance in the end of april .. not sure what we're doing, but since it's primarily promoted for the enjoyment of the rutgers community, there's not much pressure to outdo another group. lol. i miss my rcdt crew .. those long and tedious practices over the course of a month really brings people together. they say people bond more when they go through traumatic and extenuating circumstances. not to say that practice was traumatic .. lols, i'm just kidding. we all know practice was a lot of fun. =) so of course, i need to work that into my schedule .. but hey, i think i'll be okay .. the intensity will probably come after my 2 weeks of madness so i'll be fine. so just in case, if you're in the area and not busy, come check out our performace! ^_^

and as i'm typing away in my blog right now.. ironically, i have the incessant urge to go and study. but at the same time, i'm really tired and you know me, the last thing i want to do for fun is study. but it's that time of the semester again .. time to feel extensively overwhelmed with the plethora of exams and other assignments that plague me. the endless cycle continues .. and i plan on taking it one day at a time .. even with my tendency to look ahead and constantly dwell on what i should be doing tonight, tomorrow, and for the rest of the 2 weeks. but, after april 9, the weight will be off .. so hopefully i can take a breather. i'm so drained -- physically, mentally, and emotionally .. wow. i need to do something fun, and soon. before i lose my sanity. haha. today my friend the super-est sam and i had an intense and crazy systems physiology session today. as in, i don't think i've ever studied that much or that hard at one time. granted, yes, there have been times where i have been deep in thought processing information so that i guarantee and convince myself that i know exactly what is going on and reassure my confidence in my abilities. but i think i've truly reached a new limit this time. it's so much information, all at once, and i have to remember it all. wow .. but i'm glad that we were productive, and i can successfully say,

that one of the primary goals of the metabolic processes in our body is to sustain the amount of glucose in order to provide key energy for the central nervous system.
.. therefore, go eat some candy. but don't eat too much.
because the excess glucose is converted into triglycerides that get stored in adipose tissue.
and don't go on low-carb diets.
because the amino acids you take in actually get converted into glucose anyway.
.. so go have a slice of bread, okay? nice.

wow, i think i was a little too esoteric up in that blog. i think my smartness just came out. sweet, i still got it. HOT. [lol, i'm not even sure i used esoteric right in that context, but it sure is my favorite word. =)] but, moving on to a new effervescent topic.. my hip hop class is ending on monday! i'm sad. :sadness: and i am working on finding a replacement to maintain the oh-so-killer bod that i'm toning up for bikini season. that's right kids, no one likes to see all that junk in the trunk showing over the summer at the beach. hmmm, does anyone have any suggestions? i really suck at, working out. haha. i went to the gym on busch [the campus i was on at rutgers xP] by myself one tuesday night after my statistics class.. and i felt kind of corny because being the -- person that i am, i can't even lift some of the equipment and a lot of the equipment weighs just about as much as i do. yeah, i know, i'm sad. and when i was at the gym, i noticed how much of a social activity working out was.. and which was probably the reason why i more successful getting my workout in a class setting like my hip-hop class compared to working out on a machine. it's just not working for me .. haha. so, that night, somehow, i fell into joining the eskrima club at school. it's a long story .. all extraneous details aside, it was really fun. lol. i felt special learning this whole new thing and feeling coordinated. it's like dancing .. ^_^ except i get to carry a cool stick and learn how to defend myself. sweeeeet. when i came home, my parents weren't exactly thrilled that their young daughter stayed out late to learn how to stickfight. so it really kind of annoyed me .. because you know, i kind of want the support of my parents .. after all, being their child, shouldn't they support me in whatever i choose to partake in with my life? anyways, it's not like i'm doing drugs or engaging in something that is detrimental to myself. so, in a way illustrative of a social concept i learned last semester in social psychology .. when someone tells you not to do anything, the more you want to do it because you feel like your freedom is being limited. so, there you go. lol. yay eskrima .. yay for me. lol. does anyone want to buy me some bamboo sticks? haha. i think i want them for my birthday.
and after thought and typing, this blog is done. and so long! lol. peeeeeeace out son.

<3 to:
bestfriend jackie; you're freaking awesome. i love you. we are going to tear new york city apart. =)
star; thank you so much for your 2 comments .. especially the second one! it was very inspiring and it made me feel a lot better. thank you! :)
joe aka jopapa; this dude is the coolest. he's on the cutting edge. no joke. he's gonna save the world and then play guitar. HOT. ^_^
renee; OMG yes. i can't wait to go to dylan's candy bar! i actually want to have my 21st birthday there. and i want to take the whole store home. haha. =) and i think kelly ripa is the coolest.. even more so now for having a party there. lol.

socks for my tigress

hiiiii people -- yeah, so, wow, it's the end of my spring break! already! whoaaa .. time sure does fly in a week when you're not really doing anything. just like now .. i kind of gave up on my orgo lab. damn .. i had so long to do it and stupid karma just had to bite me in the ass and make my orgo book disappear! why why why! oh well, it's okay, problem solved [i.e. i got another one =X] and i'm back on track. or so i think .. but anyways! so yeah, i basically just hung out with my family for most of my spring break.. that picture right there is from mary's house when we got together for her birthday party up in her house. yeah, i know, you sweat me and mary's cool pic. =) and then, i just hit up NYC just like i promised myself. man, i don't know about everyone else, but i personally think NYC has got to be the best city in the whole -- country. lol. i don't think any other city compares .. and this is coming from someone who lives in new jersey. haha. but it really is a grrrreat city, and i love visiting it. i don't know about living there, i get really frustrated when i can't tell the difference about going uptown, midtown, or downtown.. and when all the streets kind of look -- well, similar. lol. but when you're where you want to be, new york city is pretty damn hot. though, i still love buying my clothes in new jersey better. it's tax-free in this state for clothes! lol. but i got some awesome shoes in new york city .. they really have the best sneaker joints up there.. even just the ones that aren't really the high-priced nike-sb-exclusive boutiques that have so much street cred. sorry, way too overpriced for my broke-ass college budget. but i love the asics that i got over there. christine and gillian said to me that the sales guy was hitting on me, but i couldn't tell .. and i got 10 bucks off the sneakers because i threatened not to get them. lol. maybe eventually i'll be as cool as my mom and bargain lower for my shoes. but .. i'll have to wait until i go back to nyc again during summer vacation. i sure love new jersey transit .. ^_^ and! when i go back, i promise promise x1000 to myself that i go to dylan's candy bar. i didn't get a chance to go this time, but that place is colorful candy heaven. wooooo ..! =) maybe one day, i'll even be able to go clubbing in NYC. it sure looks like a lot of fun .. ^_^ maybe over the summer, so the threat of cold and school isn't weighing too much on my mind. sigh .. i haven't been out clubbing in a while .. i want to go dancing, but i'm too lazy to plan a night out. anyone want to do it for me? =) haha .. wow, it's the end of my spring break, and instead, time to think about all the homework that i thought i was going to do over break. i'm trying to actually squeeze it all at the end of my break so that i can just chill when i get back to school .. i can't believe my semester is already over soon! what is that. it went by so fast. i wonder if 3rd year [GOD willing] will go by just as fast.. and whether or not i'll have/need a date to the halfway-done party .. ehehehe .. `;D but then again .. let's not get ahead of ourselves, shall we? lol. i'll be mad happy if i can make through second year in one piece with some A's on my transcript and a satisfying semester under my records. orgo lab is almost done [thank you GOD! =)] and soon, organic chemistry itself will be over forever! i know that it is really hard.. but i also know that i got through this once, so now i just have to suck it up and take it because i know deep down in my heart i am fully capable of anything i set my mind to! wow, so, did you hear the resonating optimism in my voice? lol. sorry, everyone seems so down, and i know how it feels to be down in the dumps.. trust me, i've been down there many, many times over these past 2 [yes, only 2] years, and it sure kills sometimes. but we're all going through the same hell together! and we'll all make it out alive, one way or another. =) well, i guess this is really the end of my entry.. i can't really think of anything else to say, besides -- happy st. patrick's day! lol. =)

cute, huh? yeah, i know. =)

<3 to:
best friend jackie; ahahaha .. ! and i love el salvadoreans! =)
a star; my mysterious commenter! thanks for visiting ^_^ though, i sure do know a lot of filipinos, so i guess that doesn't really narrow down the field for me in terms of knowing who you are. haha.
[and the other 2 comments are from me. hahaha]

i'm blushing, can't you tell

well, it is the beginning of my spring break and since i'm due for an update, i thought that this would be the perfect time for an update. now i'm not one for vanity usually, that over there, my friends, is the result of 2 weeks of .. shit. a lot has happened since i last posted .. maybe too much, in fact .. that the inevitable stress and lack of sleep has taken its toll on my fragile body and now i have this cough that makes me sound like i've been smoking since i was born. yuck! so now, with the arrival of spring break .. means the arrival of 10 hours of sleep a day. and of course, the occasional studying here and there and hitting up the city with the phenoms and other fun characters.. that is, as soon as i fight off this self-limiting disease. lol ..
but anyways, so let me tell you all about what has happened since i last wrote up. well .. my friend sam and i didn't have such a great week and we deemed it proper that we should win the "sucks to be you" award for the week because our week wasn't too good. i had 1203981209 hours of practice for battle of the barrios w/ RCDT, zero hours of sleep, panic attacks, stress, a quiz, lab, and on top of that.. we found out that we have to go to summer school because pharmacy is stupid and one of our electives doesn't count. roar! battle of the barrios came, and i managed to have as much fun as i could with all the crap going on around me. lol. and i must admit, even though we didn't achieve our goal of defending our titles from last year, it was fun representing our school and cheering each other on when we performed. and of course, we were winners in other more important matters .. `;D hehe.
then after that, i think i might have partied a little too hard, because on sunday, my throat was so raw and i went to my review for my exam and i was pretty beat. and then monday comes and i'm feeling more raw in my throat and i still have to finish up my ass long lab reports. and then, tuesday comes, and to my tired surprise, the rawness of my throat was actually a sign of a self-limiting disease known as the common cold approaching and i managed to have a low fever of 100.5 degrees. so i took medication.. couldn't really remember anything i was trying to teach myself for my exam because you know .. my head is just out there from all of the drugs i was taking to make the symptoms go away .. and then wednesday comes and it's just bad .. i'm takin like 4 extra strength tylenols .. but then thursday comes and i am surprised that i made it all the way until 940 pm without completely dying and i manage to .. coherently not do well on my organic chemistry exam. of course, no one likes to be pessimisstic, but i seriously was about to cry when i walked out of the exam room it was that bad. but, it's over now, one can only hope that i at least passed the test by the skin of my teeth.. and if not, i really have to pull something good out of my ass. oh man..
but it's no time to be sad, it's spring break .. break that i have been looking forward to for a long time. time to rest, rejuvenate, reorganize, and rewrite all of the notes that i don't understand. lol. hopefully i'll get over my cold by next week, so i can go party, just like i said before .. and not completely waste my entire spring break on sleeping [but that's not a bad idea to do. hehe] i can't believe how fast my semester has gone by .. GOD willing, i'll be a 3rd year next year .. that pharmD degree is so close but still so far away. and the summer .. yeah, summer school, lol .. and hopefully a nice vacation away from new jersey. yippie!
well, another update again soon. talk to you later kids!

one more picture post:

the colors! the colors! lol.

<3 to:
a star; two props to you for leaving me 2 comments! battle of the barrios was a competition between the filipino organizations of some schools in the tri-state area hosted by rutgers new brunswick [the school i go to].
best friend jackie; for being my number 1 fan! hehehe. i love you girl!