that's not my name

I don't usually post surveys here but ..



TEN things you wish you could say to TEN different people right now:

1. When I saw that picture of us on your refridgerator, it broke my heart about how far we've grown apart .. I hope we can bring it back. I miss us.
2. Everything I've done in my life was to make you proud.
3. For a while I was jealous of you because you had everything I could never get. But now I realize that it doesn't matter, because you're probably one of the few people I know that will always be there, and I'll never forget that.
4. I'll never know what it feels like, what you're going through, but I'll always be here for your, and I'll never get tired of you after 6 years (and many more hopefully) together.
5. I'm glad that our friendship has survived the test of time.
6. You don't matter, but it still hurts to think of what you did to me. You missed out, and that's not my fault.
7. I had the biggest crush on you! LOL!
8. I may not be making as much money as the others, but I'll do my best and make sure you grow up right.
9. You're such an idiot! I'm sorry! I love you, but you're an idiot!
10. In the end, it's you and me. I'll stand by you even if the mountains fall, even when the sky turns purple, even if you get banished to the Star Trek planet where it's all snowy. I'll travel through space and time, dear. I love you.

NINE things about yourself:

1. I procrastinate like all hell.
2. I still don't know what I want to do with my life.
3. I enjoy a warm cuddle.
4. I've become more laid back than I used to be, and I'm cool with that.
5. I crack corny jokes and try not to take myself too seriously.
6. My mom irritates me on very few occasions, and we have a hilarious loving relationship that includes me annoying her on a daily basis.
7. I will wikipedia anything I don't know.
8. I have an irrepressable sweet tooth.
9. I practice smiling in the mirror.

EIGHT ways to win your heart:

1. Cuddle with me.
2. Make me laugh.
3. Buy me a 99 cent mocha latte.
4. Remember something we talked about in passing mention and act on it.
5. Pick me up and drive me places .. hahaha!
6. Hold me and hang out with me when I'm having a bad day.
7. Look into my eyes with sexy time eyes.
8. Have a stimulating conversation with me.

SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot:

1. Graduating.
2. Finding a job and supporting kids that aren't even born yet.
3. What I am going to have for my next meal.
4. How much I want a nap.
5. Being broke all the time.
6. Charles.
7. The work that still needs to be accomplished.

SIX people who mean a lot. (no particular order)

1. My parents
2. Charles
3. People whose ringtone is "Call On Me"
4. Mary
5. Jackie
6. My Ate and Jenn

FIVE things you do before you go to bed:

1. Take a shower
2. Watch TV
3. Check my internets
4. Brush my teeth
5. Wish my parent good night and have good night call with Charles

FOUR things you’re wearing right now.

1. Free gateway T shirt
2. aeropostale boxers
3. underwear
4. scapular

THREE songs that fit your life right now.

1. Make it Work - Ne-Yo
2. Hush Hush - Pussycat Dolls
3. Lost Without You - Robin Thicke

TWO things you want to do before you die:

1. Take a vacation with my parents to Hawaii/Boracay
2. Get married and buy and Audi R8

ONE confession:

1. I was considering going to Medical School, but it takes (I think I should mention) WAY too long; I don't have the patience to wait another 10 years. I have a biological clock .. LOL

hush hush, i've already spoken

So I thought about doing the daily blog thing and obviously it failed because I am lacking about 5 posts. haha.  So I resolved that maybe I'll just blog as often as I can, as much as I can remember, because I'm pretty exhausted. I'm lucky that I got 2 days off of rotations this week because let me tell you, going to the city every day and taking the 545 am train is tiring. EXHAUSTING! And to top it all off, running an 11 hour day, getting up to 12 almost when I finally get home. DAG! But my proudest moment has got to be that I did it, I survived, and I'm still here. I learned a lot about myself and about how brave I can be, because even though I'm not in California, this is a lot for me. I'm a little bit closer to finding out what I want to do with my life; you would have thought by the 6th year I would know. Nope, still don't. haha ..

On a similar note, my rotation is going well.. being in a cubicle can get really mentally challenging because you're not allowed to take naps. LOL. Just kidding, but really, it gets pretty tough. I am learning a lot about a side of the pharmaceutical industry that I didn't know was as important as it is, and it's helping tie everything together. It's also very, very, very nice being able to walk around Central Park and Park Avenue on my lunch breaks with my classmate Paul. And getting fruit. I love New York fruit stands! One week is already finished and another week is starting .. 4 more weeks and then I'll be downtown. I guess this year will go by faster than I thought. I hope I manage to accomplish everything I set out to do, and I hope I get a good grade doing it. LOL. There's a lot of things in store for the rotation like meetings and things, so yay. I think I need to caffeinate for the rest of the rotation though, these hours keep getting tougher but at the same time I'm getting used to it. Oh well .. I still have to explore all the fun things at my fingertips! That is, if I still have the energy. LOL ..

There is still unfinished work that I have to do left over from the past year that I feel badly about not doing. I don't know if my research work is still worth turning in; Sam says it is but I don't have any motivation to do it.. except maybe guilt. I keep telling myself to do it but to no avail. Instead, I'm on facebook trying to connect to people because I feel like I haven't seen anyone in a long time. I guess you never realize how lonely you are until you are left alone. I wish there was more time, more opportunities, less work .. but I guess that is what comes with growing up. With getting a job. This sucks! haha. I think I have to give myself an internal deadline to finish it, then just hand it in, paid or not, to clear my conscience. I hate the fact that I'm like, escaping my problems, but I guess that's the way things go. After all, being on rotation is like, people can't find you since you're not at Rutgers anymore. Le sigh .. oh the high anxiety. 

I'm definitely excited for my off cycle so I can finally take a break and do nothing. My mom wants to go on vacation for a week somewhere and Jackie is thinking about coming out. I hope she does, and I hope we go somewhere for a little bit, because being in school from approximately August 2008 until May 2010 with no official break-ish is kind of rough. Off cycles are nice! YAY. 


Well anyways, I guess I'll be off  to reading my report and things and et cetera. I hope you have a wonderful Memorial Day! Catch you next time :)

sprinkles

Cycle 1, Day 1.

I want to blog about my rotation but I'm too tired to write anything. I'm sleepy and I have a pounding headache ..

Meh. WOKE UP TOO DAMN EARLY ..

Ran to the subway, ran to my site.

Then almost fell asleep!

Self reflection for today: Ang you are tired as hell. But you learned a lot! Kind of! Besides, it was only your first day. It's bound to get better.

k back to my show. peep you lates

i can show you better than i can tell you

I start rotations on Monday, May 18.

For serious?

I don't even know if I passed Neuropsych.

Sitting through my APE orientation they told us we have to write self reflections about all our rotations.

So I thought, maybe blogging everyday would help.

After all, what better way to get an insightful look into my experiences than by recording them.

Time for the rebirth of Angelica's blogspot. :)