and i'm telling you // daybreak

so let me tell you about my day so far. actually, it's not even 1 o clock, so techinically there's still more of day left to worry about. but! anyways, so let me tell you what just happened to me 1 hour ago.

so like usual, i was in a rush to get to my pathophysiology class, it was almost 11 am, and i was trying my best to shove some adobo down my throat and into my belly so i wouldn't be hungry when i would be vigorously typing away anything and everything that would be said in lecture that noontime. i hopped into my car, sped away [though, luckily, there was no traffic on the way to school] and ran after the bus like usual. i got to class, with enough time to spare to be able to go to the computer lab and import today's lecture notes onto my laptop so i wouldn't have as hard a time typing away. it was 11:45, and class was about to start. 11:55, and dr. reuhl was about to start. class wasn't as filled as usual, there were a good amount of seats still open, maybe like 50 of us weren't in class yet. even viv and carissa weren't in class yet -- but then again, i wasn't even sure if they were coming today. as noon rolls around, dr. reuhl makes us take out a piece of paper, write our names and id numbers down -- yep, he's taking attendance. so we pass our papers to the front, and then it continues, little by little, more of my classmates were handing in papers. then dr. reuhl started saying some stuff about how attendance wasn't mandatory but if people started arguing over a couple of points, this would probably be the deciding factor between an A and a B+. [because we all know how pharmacy students like to fight over points. lol]
but then .. dr. reuhl continues to rant on, about how there was a hole in the material, and how he gets cranky at the end of the semester when people start falling off about not coming to class, and then the unexpected happened. dr. reuhl completely flipped the biggest shit i ever seen in my entire pharmacy school career [so far.] .. he yelled, "ENOUGH!" and said he didn't want to lecture anymore and he packed up his laptop and bounced. just like that. he said that the exam would be on our lecture material that we went over last monday and whatever was left .. i think i'm supposed to learn it on my own because it's going to be on my exam too. i'm supposed to read it on my own but ha! i didn't even buy the fricking pathophysiology book! wow, that's frickin great. he said something too like even if we don't learn it now we're going to learn it next year. yeah, okay .. so all of us, sitting in the class, frickin stunned and feeling like, WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPENED?!?! it took us a good 5 minutes to collect our thoughts and process what just happened. now me i felt like i completely wasted my time coming in here, wasted the gas that i just used to get here, and now i have a day off. wow, i feel like this frickin school is going to lose its accreditation with the rate that it's going at. and if it does, i swear i am transferring out of here and i'm not going to be a pharmacist anymore. i mean, come on. f that. how will i get a job when my degree isn't even valid? sam said that the deans are going to yell at us about what has been happening. but it's like, what are you going to do? what are you flipping a shit like that? i mean it's not our class's fault if we are a little late. i could have frickin missed the bus by like 2 mins and was late 2 mins to class. people were saying like maybe he was having a really bad day that's why dr. reuhl acted like that. damn, if he wanted to take attendance he should have done it in the middle or at the end. but he didn't even give us a chance to stop. he flipped out while we were still handing it in. ugh!!! i am just mad that he made me waste my time today. i mean, it sucks already that i have to teach myself all this shit about the adrenal gland and the endocrine system and blah blah blah. but so as to not feel like this was a complete waste of my time, i decided to write this entry. and complain about how majorly f'ed up this school of mine is. i mean, i come to class every day. i can count on my hands how many times i've skipped class in the 3 years i've been here. and it's not a lot. you can't say that i haven't tried my best to maintain my sanity and be a good student. no, you can't see that. because you have all got your heads so far up your frickin butts. UGH UGH i hate this frickin shit man .. as if my life was not already complicated. ..