girl you know what's up

hello lovers and friends! well first off, i would like to apologize for my last part of my entry being really angry .. maybe i shouldn't have to apologize, but hey -- it's not usually my nature to be bitter, and if anyone was offended or took it the wrong way, i am sorry. =) anyways, i had planned on updating earlier, but i didn't have anything to say -- i still don't, but now i feel like updating is a little bit easier and maybe i can just .. i denno. something will come out. haha. right now, it's monday and we're in the midst of a heat wave here in dirty jersey .. temps reached about, 95+ degrees here, and i don't have much relief .. except to run through the sprinklers every so often,and of course, to take a cool dip in a pool in a home in another town through the graciousness of a certain special someone -- if you know what i mean. `;D that and i could really, really use some rita's italian ices. mmmm .. cold .. gelati .. yummy .. but anyways, i guess i should get some of that before i leave for las vegas .. i don't think they have it there.. basically an east coast thing, huh? yeah. =)
last saturday was my nanay's padasal -- the annual family holiday that to me, is comparable to christmas, minus the fact that it's in july and there's no presents. that and i get bit by all the stupid bugs outside when we have the mass. they really, really itch .. oh man, all i want to do is scratch scratch scratch. but that's okay .. i guess it's subsiding, especially with the hydrocortizone and aquaphor that have become my new drugs of choice. [don't worry, it's just ointment. haha] but anyways, it was pretty fun and random, full of food and family members that i don't even know who they are but apparently they know who i am. haha. there was some lady at the party who kept talking to me and my homie and charles and she told homie that she was prettier than cameron diaz. hehe ! and charles is such a trooper, he came to the party straight up after his flight arrived from san francisco. awwww. =) someone likes me a whole lot. hehe ! i like him a lot too. and i think my family does .. or something .. i think they get the hint that he's my boyfriend. i just forgot to mention that, i'm so used to introducing everyone as my friend. and then, GASP! i have a what? a boyfriend? what? what is that word. word! but anyways, i guess all the hard work of shrimp peelings and barbecue stick making and plus, reading all the readings at the mass because my cousins all chickened out [LOL] was worth it. ate said that sooner or later jeremy will grow up and he'll be the one to read.. but for now, i guess it's just me. haha. ate and jenn were telling me that mom and ninang fely were kind of tired to keep throwing the party for nanay and tatay's padasal because they're getting old and sometimes it feels like it's just turning into a party to show off ninang b's house instead of what the party is really supposed to represent. but then again, maybe i'm still too young to understand things like that [yeah i know, i'm 19, but still!] and all i know for me is that, it's my duty as a cousin in the family to keep it going. tradition i guess, what can i say. =) and it's funny because the party used to end really late -- i would be at ninang b's until 12 or 1 am, and now, the party ends by 10. how early! lol. and you know me and the pictures --

abbygail is so cute! i love my goddaughter =)

hehe .. sleeping .. and still looking good. `;D

i heart the homie aka the newest member of my extended family. hehehe

but anyways, other than that, it's just work and, wasting my summer days away. =) i'm really excited, i'm going on vacation on saturday july 22 to hot and sunny sin city aka las vegas ! yayayayyay! i can't wait to ride in an airplane. i just love the airport! too bad because of homeland security and all, you can't just randomly go to the airport for no reason just like you can randomly go to a rest stop and get roy rogers fried chicken. mmm mmm mmm. i can't wait to do nothing and have fun on vacation! wweeeee! my mom was making fun of me that i was a little too excited because i kind of finished packing in one night. hahaha .. but then again, i know there's stuff that i might take out or something, and stuff i still need to put in, but for the most part, i got most of my junk in the trunk! yeah! i know that it's gonna be like 100 degrees there .. and 100 degrees here, but whatevs! i just want to get out of the state. hahaha .. and walk around and be a tourist and take pictures and yayayayay! and wear a bikini! hehehe! and and SOUVENIRS! WOOOOO
lol, i'm whack i know. =)

well anyways, i guess that is the end of my entry or something. maybe i'll be updating again later before i leave, who knows. hope you all have a wonderful evening! and take care in the heat.. it's pretty brutal out there!

<3 to:
bestfriend jackie; awww thanks bestfriend in the universe! =) i love pictures too!
the gian; hehe thanks gian! yeah, i have the other picture on my cd -- i'll send it to you. i still think you look fresh in that one. don't worry, i'll definitely let you know if need some backup in the whoopass department. =)
christine aka the homie; awww thanks homie! someone is also part of a dynamic duo that is oh so adorable. `;D definitely need another homie hang out.. forrreeeaaalllsss.
marielle; hehe awww thanks! =) hope things are going well for you in MA!

number 1 smash hit

well since it is summer, here is another random entry ! yay. hehe. first off i've got to say,

happy independence day!

since you know, it is 4th of july and all, i'm just kind of sad that i don't really get to watch fireworks this year and plus, it's raining ish outside. too bad so sad .. but oh well, i do have a philosophy final to study for that right now, i'm really not. where's my motivation -- holy crap, i totally fell asleep in class yesterday. O.0 hehehehe. it was pretty bad. i still think that one time with the dude who was our substitute .. that was the best class. too bad he wasn't our lecturer from the start. but oh well .. it's starting to sunny up outside, which is good .. i can go out and re-warm myself because it is cold in my house. then again, yay for air conditioning! yayayay. LOL, i really don't have anything good to say in my blog right now .. i think i'm really just rambling on and on. i kind of wanted to go to atlantic city today .. or some day .. something about altantic city feels like summer to me .. even though it's pretty dirty down there. dirty food and dirty casinos. except the borgata .. that's hella nice. mmmmm. that and six flags. nothing beats riding roller coasters in 80 degree weather and sweating and stuff like that. oh summer .. i want a slurpee too. and a new swimsuit. and a new bag, and some sunblock .. shorts for sleeping .. damn, i'll be spending mad moneys this month. especially on vacation! what what! okay since i don't have anything good to say i'll just post up pictures because that is what i meant to do. hahahaha .. so to better explain what has happened in the past couple of days since i wrote, i shall use picture form! ever so useful, no? =) click to enlarge! =)

i'm sorry gil, but this guy is really hot. ^_^ really, really ..


sneaking into the picture, are we?


fire hazardly blocking the way to the counter


i think these people are awesome. yay fusion!


fobby peace signs!


updated most wanted. yeahhh boy! be jealous.

well anyways, that is how i have been spending my summer vacation. =] and one more thing, yeah, it's pretty bad when parts of my entries are really angry, but whatever, i feel like i should have to say this because someone won't and i think they should, but i know they can't because they're too nice to do it which is what makes them really awesome in the first place. it's really f*cked up how some people can treat other people. especially when it's to really awesome people. why they gotta be like that? that's not fair. who thinks that they have the right to be like they're the shit and that they have the right to rule the world. excuse, me, uh, no? because you're garbage! GARBAGE! did i stutter? no! because you're GARBAGE!

all i gotta say is that don't ever f*ck around with me, my family or my friends. yeah i'm only 5'1'' but i have the capacity to kick your ass. people say this all the time, but i promise you, i will follw through. i will take my eskrima stick and i will bust your ass in front of all your dumb friends and those dumb ugly guys who think you're awesome. because they're dumb too! like i learned in philosophy, maybe they have some inverted spectrum problem! yeah, i know i've been treated pretty shitty myself, and didn't really do anything. and yeah, i really don't like to pick fights with people because i believe violence is wrong. but you know what else? i'm a lover and a fighter. i don't take shit from anyone, especially some stupid ass bitch who thinks she's the shit. yeah, alright. don't even play with me. you're crap! there will always be people that i just don't like in this world, and don't even tell me all their freakin good qualities. i don't buy into that garbage. hell, i'm getting too old for all this shit, but it's pretty bad how these stupid ass people act! IT MAKES ME REALLY PISSED OFF AND I WILL NOT HESITATE TO FLIP A BITCH. really. i don't like to wish death on people because that is neither right nor fair, but i know damn well that i hope you suffer! that's right. i hope you fail and cry and then you experience the pain that i went through for 2 years. because i heard where you're going.. and you know what! i won't hesitate to LAUGH IN YOUR FACE! and then you don't know what to do because you would be such a failure! and you suck at life! a LOT! and then you realize just how dumb you are! because you're dumb! DUMB! and and and! don't talk about my boyfriend like you're better because you're crap! CRAP!

amidst all that, i still pull the whole silence thing. hey, i learned it from my parents, what can i say. haha. and obviously, it works. lol. but anyways, i am done being angry. my emotional expense-- even my anger -- is not worth being wasted on these childish, crappy people. because i love my friends! and i love mary and gabe and mike, my mom and my dad, and my best friend in the universe, and my homie, and the breathing mechanisms of the fish, and .. ^_^

well okay i am done! sorry if you think that was directed towards you, if you do, you're probably wrong about that. so anyways! time to study for real. .. psh, yeah, okay ..

<3 to:
gillian; aww thanks gil! i love your comment! =) it's rough at times, but i know the time will come when it will be over. i hope. hehe
bestfriend jackie x2; hehehe you're the greatest. thanks for always listening, especially that one time when i didn't realize you had free nights yet because of the 3 hr thing. ^_^ and mahal kita din! =D