i wanna be living for the love of you

there are days when i contemplate the mysteries of life .. i think about how the sun shines, how it sets so late when it's summer .. how it feels so good to go for an evening drive .. i don't understand a lot of things, i know a lot of people don't either .. and it's usually about the same things, the same things that drive television, and the world, and weblogs, and stories that people write ..
on the way home today i heard the song "for the love for you" by the isley brothers. it was such a beautiful sunset that was happening as i was driving .. it was nice, and peaceful. and i felt like i was 20 years old .. for the first time in a while .. halfway through the year before my 21st birthday. sometimes i surprise myself with the risks i'm willing to take .. sometimes you hear things from people, and you think that, never in your life would you do certain things, but then you do them .. and you turn around and think, wow, was that really me? where was my head at! but then it's like .. that was another experience, another milestone that you've done. another .. well, thing you could check off your list that you could say you did. after all, at least you could say, you tried. you tried to do it! even if it didn't work out the way you thought it would. sometimes it's better, sometimes not. and sometimes, i think, everyone has that side of them that they're suppressing.
so hard, i feel, people try to convince themselves that they've been the same person they've always been. that through everything they've been through, it hasn't fazed them. but as much as i wish i could believe in that, i now know that it's not true. i think that, people can still feel the same way about things -- you can still like the same colors, movies, people, tv, and etc.. but the way the world works, the way other people work, it changes you, even if you're not willing to admit it out front. i know for a fact i'm not the same girl i was 5, 10 years ago. i think if my former self were to talk to my present self, she would be sorely disappointed. but i think not everything has gone to hell, as much as people change, paradoxically, oxymoronically, whatever, there are still parts that remain the same. yes! a cliche! i know! but still. i think part of me refuses to give up on some of the dreams that i've always had. the dream to have a happy marriage, to be finacially stable, have a successful career, and have kids.
life would always be easier if nothing changed, of course. but i think realizing that change is inevitable is a big step. you can say it as much as you want to, out loud, in your head, to try and get the notion straight. but then, when that moment hits you, the moment where you realize that you've really changed again at this point in your life, that is when the real fun begins.

<3 to my best friend jackie, the one and only..

the end.

dahil sa iyo

happy 100th birthday to my nanay!

so my nanay would have been 100 today. [aka my mom's mom.] wow nanay, you've got about 83 years on me. i miss you! i wish that you were here so that i could show you all my cool tricks on the computer and stuff. so that i could have done mano po to you and you could talk to me in tagalog and i would respond. and so that you could have met charles, because even though he is goofy and doesn't talk tagalog maybe you would like him too. anyway nanay i love you and i miss you, and even though i wasn't as lucky as ate or jenn to meet you and hang out with you, i know that you love me too. and guess what nanay! bob barker finally retired! =)

ooh child you're my destiny

i don't really have much to say, i'm actually putting off writing this paper of mine for research.

damn, it's just like school! ahhh i'm so tired. mom says it's because i'm not used to the whole, 8-4/9-5 jones. yeah .. no i'm not. but anyways,

i loves you charles. =) [or charlie poo as christine and gillian teasingly refer to him as. hahaha.]

there are a bajillion words i could type and say about how i feel about you, about everything we've been through, describing my feelings and thoughts and ideas and blah blah blah .. but it really all comes down to this. i fricking love you! :)

=)

time to be a big girl now

so today i went to research [even though my 2 weeks are done and now i'm alone because pooja started working and they're not sure what they are going to do with me yet, i don't even know if i should come in again in the afternoon after computer lab work] and while yokechen the postdoc let me make panels of excel of pictures of tissue cultures .. the phone rings, and since i am the only one in the lab, i answer it, try my best to take a message [i'm nervous here, i've never answered the phone before in a research lab] and whoever was on the other line didn't want to give me a message, and then i got in trouble! dr. gordon comes in, not once, but twice .. first to look for ming-wei [her graduate student who the message was for], but the second time around was to scold me for not properly answering the phone. of course, like the little underling that i am, i sat there, trying my best to take in her constructive criticism, while at the same time feeling wholly inadequate -- after all, i was being scolded about how i answered the phone.. not for, say, blowing something up. or breaking a slide. or setting millions of dollars worth of equipment on fire. [not that i did those things. i didn't. i just, didn't answer the phone right.] i know for a fact that she was just trying to help, just trying to correct me so that next time the phone rings, i will know what to do, nothing will go as wrong as it did, and messages will go to people who need to take them. of course, i could also not answer the phone .. haha.

don't get me wrong, dr. gordon is nice. she is prompt, and organized, and gets her shit done. she is my professor and i have a deep respect for her. but i couldn't help but feel seriously embarrassed, inexperienced, unworthy, stupid. all because i didn't know how to answer the phone. the rest of the time i was in lab all i could think about was how much i wanted to leave and finish my work and get the hell out of there. the phone rang again about an hour after she had her talk with me, and i tried everything in my power not to answer it. is anyone else in the lab? maybe someone else will answer it. i hoped and wished. nope. still just me. alone in the lab. when i finally had the realization that i was alone again i went up to answer it, and surprisingly, the person on the other end had already hung up. well, i thought, if someone asks, i went to the bathroom and no one was there. haha ..

as much as i want to be busy and not bored for my summer, it sucks that i come home and feel tired, as if i was still in school. i long for the weekends again, at least this time, weekends mean i can actually bullshit around and not feel pressured like something's due. though, it's still confusing that i don't know what my schedule is for research. it feels like i could just make my own reasonable hours. [which in my head includes leaving before 4. preferably 330? haha .. that's like 2 hours of work a day. except wednesday where it's like, 7 or something.] i hope that my summer is still enjoyable even though i have so much stuff to do. i guess, it would be the same if i worked fulltime or if i had a fulltime internship .. ahhh, free time, i miss you! when i graduate, i plan to do nothing for a month. or go on vacation for a month. sigh. i hate that catch 22 junk -- the only way i can get money to go out is if i work, and if i work, i don't have time to go out. why, WHY, why ..

on another note, i miss gillian, she is in arizona for 10 weeks doing her own form of research for the greater good. [yes, she really is doing research. in a university. =P] and i miss jackie too, she is in barcelona infusing her mind with all kinds of euro design and stuff stuff. so sadness .. but i am super excited to hang out with my one and only homie on sunday .. we are going to act like we are filipino pride ecstatic and look at all of the gangsta fobs and tabs and, yeah. and buy stuff .. yay stuff .. come too, if you're in the area. it's sunday in nyc .. philippine independence day parade. and blah blah blah.

next tuesday is supposed to be a very special day for me .. but with the way things are going, i don't think anything special is going to happen. it kind of breaks my heart a little .. breaks my heart that it just might become another ordinary day. i have a present i have to give someone and hopefully, i can at least do that much. i worked really hard on this present and the 5 page letter that went with it. well, nothing ever ends up as planned, even my present. haha.

i plan on going down to the seashore and getting all kinds of tan this summer. i wish i could go on a vacation again like i went to las vegas, sadly, no money = no vacation = have to work a lot a lot. oh well, maybe i'll go to AC or something. and see ja rule again .. ahahah

well this is the end of my entry for today. now that it's summer i guess i'll be on track [hopefully] for the 1 entry per week deal. maybe ..

tu amor.

<3 to:
homie; thanks homie! it's summery. =)
bestfriend; of course, you know i'm always up for a good chat. ^_^ haha, yeah, gabe's all, "mature" and junk .. whatever he's still little to me .. nyahaha

my lipgloss is poppin

i wanted to make sure my blogger was okay so i'm writing a waste post. ahahahaha

on a sad note, my family went back to the philippines. =( it's surprising how quiet our block is now that it's only me and mary and gabe too. awww .. no more random parties at mary's house ..

i really really want to ride in an airplane, especially since i saw my classmate jess chan as she was leaving for hawaii. awww ..

okay i'm done!

just keep breathing

okay, so this is the entry i promised .. the entry that i was supposed to write yesterday, but today i'm putting my 10 min pilates burn and abs workout on hold [i don't feel as bad since i did walking walking and dancing dancing today .. hah] so that i could finally, finally write something in this blog of mine that i finally had a chance to change the layout for. finally..

so today is/was gabe's prom .. he's having it at the same place i had my senior prom .. except for the fact that today it's called "addison park" instead of garden manor and the other fact that he's able to go to wildwood for more than a whole weekend overnighting for 3 days.. while i couldn't .. i had to come home and then i went to the city the day after. and six flags that saturday after that. in hindsight i'm a little bitter about it .. i feel deprived because i couldn't experience the traditional go-down-to-the-jersey-shore-after-prom that everyone else gets to do. heck, when jackie was still living here, she slept over my house because her brother went down to seaside or something and she couldn't stay home alone. i confronted my mom about this -- first by asking if i could overnight with my friends in wildwood for a weekend over the summer [mind you, i'm 20 years old now and in college] to which she retorted that i would have to come home after visiting the beach. but i'm 20 now, i reply, thinking that it would be enough reason for me to be able to go. i overnighted in new york last year .. to which she spatted back, "but you stayed out until 4 o'clock in the morning in the street. that's what you're going to do? stay out until 4 o'clock in the street!!!! ... you're so eager to get out of the house."

"maybe because i haven't been out of the house." i say under my breath.

mom, i'm not that retarded. sometimes i think she should be counting her blessings that i'm not even worse off, i'm not a crackhead, i'm not an alkie, heck, i think the only thing excessive about me is my spending habit. and maybe my .. erm .. "lustful" tend.. dencies ..? and even those aren't as bad as they could be. sure, i did screw up my chances for future overnightings by blurting out that i went to the club .. but then again .. there's an even bigger backstory that remains to be untold by 12 .. [or was it 13? 14?] people.

conversations like these with my mother further solidify my plan to get the hell out of here when i graduate. maybe even sooner .. maybe when i turn "grad student." she just can't let go of me .. this woman .. she'll keep me under "parole" or on my "leash" for as long as she can.
but at the same time she comes into my room and hands me 10 dollars because i told her i only have $2 in my wallet. sigh.

anywho, i've been doing the damn thing at the labor-a-tory researching .. it's pretty cool getting to act like mad scientist with slides and vents and dozens of bottles of stuff .. i've been testing it out to see if that's what i really want to do with my life .. i imagined myself to be all glamorous looking cool with experiments and stuff .. but in reality it's not as fabulous as i thought .. pooja and i [pooja is my fellow research student .. she's a year ahead of me] walk around doing nothing for minutes on end [even an hour today] waiting for things to "incubate" and etc. but it's cool to see results .. i guess time will only tell what i'll really do with my life.

well i guess this is the end of the entry .. time for sleep or else i won't wake up tomorrow ..

good night peeps

smoke in your eyes

i know, i'm due for an entry. it's midnight and i have to sleep because i have research tomorrow. promise, better entry soon. tomorrow. really.

quote of the day:

ate mercy: when is your due date?
jenn: december 8
ate mercy: december 8? that's immaculate conception!
jenn: i know and that's how it happened!


haha .. i love you jenn. you're the only one who can talk sense into me sometimes ..

<3 to my bestfriend jackie and my homie christine, with whom i could traverse the globe with [but first we have to learn our way around the state of new jersey. haha]

even if i did i don't know if i would quit but i doubt it

so i have been procrastinating yet again to finish up this pharmaecon paper that's due monday now, since dr. suh is so funny he gave us an extension for no good reason .. he's always such a happy guy. even when we're all not there. what a happy guy ..


it finally stopped raining again today and there's flooding again in the raritan river .. i think all this liquid precipitation is really going to my head, not to mention all of these stupid tests i have to take .. sigh sigh sigh


this time last week i was partying it up with my classmates; some of them really don't know how to hold down the liquor, lol, but it's okay, because i had a good time with my peeps. yay for halfway done party, and celebratory t-shirt that comes with it


today abbygail was across the street and we were playing again .. sometimes it's like my family takes away a significant amount of my time that would otherwise be wasted [though i would like to think i could use it to study, haha, who am i kidding]

this was last sunday when my mom gave her the "board" with some lady on it .. surprisingly she really liked it

when we were playing she took off glasses and posed with them for the camera .. yup, we're training the camera lovers early, lol, jk

and then she told me to pose and pretend i was snoring .. haha "ninang angie ninang angie" "... no you have to snore loud"

she's adorable. kuya dodong said she mana after her ninang .. lol .. hah

she kept laughing when she saw this picture in my phone .. because it's of me and my boyfriend .. haha

well i guess i'm gonna call it a night .. even though i basically slept all day and didn't do anything. maybe i'll just do the last couple of questions of this damn paper and then that's it .. bleh. what a bleh day .. eventually remind me to change up the layout here. yeah, i gotta add that to my to do list ..

<3 to my bestfriend jackie; the end.

good night and good luck

relax your mind let your conscience be free

since i am extra happy about having no school, i would like to write a short entry in multimedia form [aka pictures and musics teehee]

so today was like the first time ever that they canceled school! how exciting! you know it's something serious when frickin RUTGERS cancels school. i mean come on, it's a frickin state of emergency here!! i guess we won't be performing in the pharmacy gong/talent show tonight .. man, i risked my life for kind of nothing last night! meh .. oh well, at least i learned the dance. heh

in other happier news, charles's team won the championship in his league! yay i am so proud of him. i'm his #1 fan!! [next to his mom and dad of course. teehee]

friday is my halfway done formal, yay for us! i was stressing out last night because i have so much shit to do .. i guess i could get around to starting that paper of mine. and studying for pharmachem. yup yups ..

well i guess today will be a stay in day. yee!

i shall go enjoy choco bunnies and SLEEP. :)

© to my best friend in the whole universe jackie for consistently being an inspiration and a driving force in my life! as well as being my resident fashion forward resource ^_^ [and also for leaving me a comment heeh] totes! funzies! :) :)

and i'm telling you // daybreak

so let me tell you about my day so far. actually, it's not even 1 o clock, so techinically there's still more of day left to worry about. but! anyways, so let me tell you what just happened to me 1 hour ago.

so like usual, i was in a rush to get to my pathophysiology class, it was almost 11 am, and i was trying my best to shove some adobo down my throat and into my belly so i wouldn't be hungry when i would be vigorously typing away anything and everything that would be said in lecture that noontime. i hopped into my car, sped away [though, luckily, there was no traffic on the way to school] and ran after the bus like usual. i got to class, with enough time to spare to be able to go to the computer lab and import today's lecture notes onto my laptop so i wouldn't have as hard a time typing away. it was 11:45, and class was about to start. 11:55, and dr. reuhl was about to start. class wasn't as filled as usual, there were a good amount of seats still open, maybe like 50 of us weren't in class yet. even viv and carissa weren't in class yet -- but then again, i wasn't even sure if they were coming today. as noon rolls around, dr. reuhl makes us take out a piece of paper, write our names and id numbers down -- yep, he's taking attendance. so we pass our papers to the front, and then it continues, little by little, more of my classmates were handing in papers. then dr. reuhl started saying some stuff about how attendance wasn't mandatory but if people started arguing over a couple of points, this would probably be the deciding factor between an A and a B+. [because we all know how pharmacy students like to fight over points. lol]
but then .. dr. reuhl continues to rant on, about how there was a hole in the material, and how he gets cranky at the end of the semester when people start falling off about not coming to class, and then the unexpected happened. dr. reuhl completely flipped the biggest shit i ever seen in my entire pharmacy school career [so far.] .. he yelled, "ENOUGH!" and said he didn't want to lecture anymore and he packed up his laptop and bounced. just like that. he said that the exam would be on our lecture material that we went over last monday and whatever was left .. i think i'm supposed to learn it on my own because it's going to be on my exam too. i'm supposed to read it on my own but ha! i didn't even buy the fricking pathophysiology book! wow, that's frickin great. he said something too like even if we don't learn it now we're going to learn it next year. yeah, okay .. so all of us, sitting in the class, frickin stunned and feeling like, WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPENED?!?! it took us a good 5 minutes to collect our thoughts and process what just happened. now me i felt like i completely wasted my time coming in here, wasted the gas that i just used to get here, and now i have a day off. wow, i feel like this frickin school is going to lose its accreditation with the rate that it's going at. and if it does, i swear i am transferring out of here and i'm not going to be a pharmacist anymore. i mean, come on. f that. how will i get a job when my degree isn't even valid? sam said that the deans are going to yell at us about what has been happening. but it's like, what are you going to do? what are you flipping a shit like that? i mean it's not our class's fault if we are a little late. i could have frickin missed the bus by like 2 mins and was late 2 mins to class. people were saying like maybe he was having a really bad day that's why dr. reuhl acted like that. damn, if he wanted to take attendance he should have done it in the middle or at the end. but he didn't even give us a chance to stop. he flipped out while we were still handing it in. ugh!!! i am just mad that he made me waste my time today. i mean, it sucks already that i have to teach myself all this shit about the adrenal gland and the endocrine system and blah blah blah. but so as to not feel like this was a complete waste of my time, i decided to write this entry. and complain about how majorly f'ed up this school of mine is. i mean, i come to class every day. i can count on my hands how many times i've skipped class in the 3 years i've been here. and it's not a lot. you can't say that i haven't tried my best to maintain my sanity and be a good student. no, you can't see that. because you have all got your heads so far up your frickin butts. UGH UGH i hate this frickin shit man .. as if my life was not already complicated. ..

the writing's on the wall

so much for my happy ending

there goes my entire post. all the shit that i just spent half and hour typing! @#$% ..

but i guess i'm over it .. maybe GOD was telling me that i shouldn't say it out loud online.

it happened for a reason.

♥ to --
bestfriend jackie; for believing in me especially when i don't believe in myself
amanda; because sleep really does feel like i'm running away from my problems
star; because pharmacy is hard

fighting temptations

so as 90% of my 1st round exams are coming to a close, things aren't really looking up .. well, i mean, i've only gotten like 3 grades, and they're not very promising, which is really dissappointing because i thought i was doing something right and i would do better than i did. apparently i was wrong, and it's really frustrating because i don't know what to do anymore, i don't want to stress out about this, i don't want to have to pull all-nighters like my friends do, i want to be confident in what i study but i always feel like i have dyslexia when i read even though i feel like things are okay in class. again, again i feel like this .. i guess, i should talk to the TA now so i don't fall into a trap since i was close to the critical grade. i don't even know what to talk about to him. and i'm scared i bombed my other 2 exams that i took because the exam i didn't do well in i studied really really hard for and i took the other 2 exams kind of for granted a little bit? GOD, i hate monday exams, i hate 3 hr exams on thursday nights [which are basically like finals but it's just a midterm!!] and i just hate this feeling of inadequacy. i thought that you know, since it's lent, i would try and be a better person, but it's like, i've been trying and i'm going nowhere. i want to redeem myself, but i'm so tired. my head hurts. sometimes i think maybe if i sleep it'll go away. everything will just go away and everything will just be better like it was before. i kind of miss how things used to be in high school .. i did so well in high school, but when i got to college it was so hard to adapt. i mean i know that's the point, because when the real world comes it's going to be even harder to adapt to a new lifestyle and all. things always feel like they're out of my control and i am frustrated! :( :( :( :( why why .. "that's all you have to do -- pokus pokus pokoos .." says my mom .. i guess i'm just lacking that maybe? am i lacking focus? but i feel like it's been this way for the past 2 years now. lol. i read my past entries because i thought, i couldn't have been feeling like this last sophomore year, and apparently i was, apparently i thought what i was studying was the hardest stuff in the world. and then i came to 3rd year and i was surprised yet again, yet again everything is hard. then again i can't even focus when i'm watching tv. i know, now that's just retarded. i mean, i go to class. everyday. i never miss a class. i take notes. i pay attention. i study. what am i doing wrong? why can't i get the A+'s that i used to get? why can't i be in the running for top 10% like i used to be? my mom says that patho is just hard. she thought it was way way way hard and that college is just really hard because you're on your own not like in highschool where they spoonfeed you everything. i guess that's true .. sigh .. anywho, so i saw a mouse during one of my lectures at arc 103 [aka my home]. i hope it's okay and it didn't scare anyone else .. it looked just like that mouse up there which is why i put the picture. haha. and since lent has started, i've been trying to fight all kinds of temptations [hence the title] and i guess i've been doing okay with that too. sometimes i lose my mind and i don't know what the hell i was thinking, but i think it's time to get back into the jones of things, to be a little naive about things, to be a little more careful and more responsible. i'm trying not to spend unecessary money because i ..

a) need to make back the money i spent during christmas
b) want to save up for a new laptop (sony vaio sz series to be exact ^_^)
c) need to reduce the amount of bills i have to pay
d) would like to have money for later on. like for going on lakwatsa and etc .. going to nyc again ..
lol.

so far i've been good, i want to really buy sneakers but i didn't .. i thought that maybe the money would go to better use buying "professional" clothes or really nice high heels [i've recently acquired a fascination for 4 inch heels] or something else that would come in handy down the road. i got really nice 4 inch heels to go with my dress that i'm going to wear to the "halfway done" pharmacy formal .. i'm excited that yes! i get to go .. it's a rite of passage and i am in the mood to dress up and party. it's just ironic that it's at victorian manor, yeah, where everything else always is, but whatevs .. there are other temptations that i'm trying to fight also [which i would like to keep to myself .. haha] and it's getting increasingly more difficult to hold back. it's hard to hold back when it strikes something deep inside you that you've been keeping in since you started to realize that you've been growing up .. when you realize that people really do the things that you never thought were possible. when you start getting close to doing something you thought was out of your personality. but never fear, i think i've got my self-control, and it's good to know that someone else does as well. it's such a comforting notion, and i just realized this week how important and meaningful it was to me. that's how i know that we're on the same wavelength. that's how i know this feels right. it's gradual, it's not pressured. it's like running as far as you can into the ocean when you're swimming before you know you've reached dangerous territory and you need to swim back before you drown. and i hope maybe with this renewed focus and sensibility i'll be able to be better. be a better person. um, be a better student. with those GODFORSAKEN POWERPOINT SLIDES .. $%#@ .. the pharmacy program is cruel .. people have been beaten and wrung out .. i'm over it .. no i'm not. lol.

well i guess this is the end of this one for today .. finally mom says, "you have your shoes, you have your dress for the party already. now that you're relaxed, you can focus on something else." haha .. yeah .. i might as well read or some shit. yeah. or no ..

ps:: this is why my boyfriend is the best.

charles(10:17:39 PM): ...filling in bubbles is fun
angelica(10:17:54 PM): hahahahaha awwww
charles(10:17:54 PM): ...thats y they call it a monkey test
angelica (10:18:00 PM): LOL
charles(10:18:08 PM): cause even it can pass
angelica(10:18:28 PM): LOL .. i know .. and that's what i think in my head when i have no idea what the answer is

k bye.

special ♥ to mary cuz it's her 19th birthday! yay for you mary. =)

<3 to:
the homie; ahhhh robin thicke robin thicke robin thicke! :siiiggghhh: lol! yess my outing was fun ^_^ and we are going to party this weekend! yay! because i miss you a lot lot too homieeee! and sometimes fortune cookies can be wise. lol.
best friend jackie; oh yes we heart each other. hehe. yay. i heart you toooo!
star; aw thanks you're awesome too! lol, yeah sometimes i look back on it and i forget how much things have changed .. but i guess it's for the better =)

all night long to the sky

so i was looking for robin thicke's album on aol [since you can listen to the whole thing for free] and i looked him up on wikipedia to find out the track listing ..

"He appears in the music video of this single with his wife, actress Paula Patton, who is totally bangin."

that's hilarious. they just had to add the "bangin" part .. lol ..

anyways, so between being online and trying to study for drug delivery [which is on monday] and trying to battle the menstruation cycle [jk i love my period! weeee! lol] i decided to write in here, wrapping up what's been on my mind, what's been happening, etc ..
so i finally gave the Theo Aspct Pharm presentation that i had to give with farah and raj, i don't know if far-out professor dr. ji really liked us or not, but he spent the rest of the period trying to explain the theory he just came up with after talking with us 3 times over the past 2 weeks .. damn, if we went any later, who knows what else he'd be telling us to say. man! as raj says, he gets paid to spend his days daydreaming about whatever in his little office filled with papers and books. sometimes when i'm sitting in class i feel like.. he's like a person you know who really wans to tell you something, and since you're there, he tells you it .. like a story you want to tell anyone who'll listen and care about your insanity, and since we're the people in his class, that's what we're there for. to listen to his crazy stories. i wonder how far we're actually going to get when it comes to the midterm exam .. that's gonna be fun .. lol .. but anyways, we're getting into the first wave of exams and i guess it's going okay. i don't know if i'm studying right or whatever, but i guess i'm hanging in there. i know i'm supposed to be all focused and crazy adderol like but i feel like i did a lot better when i was relaxed about things and just confident in my abilities instead of stressing out about how i don't know anything. i mean, yeah, i don't know everything, but i know something, and as long as i feel confident, that's what matters, right? i hope so. and then today i went with donald to see if i could get a job at cvs .. hopefully they hire me .. damn, i applied at that place like 5 times already .. whatevs, if i get it, it's just like the mall where i worked all weekend. it's all G .. though i am going to miss how i have free weekends nowadays and i can go out if i want to .. but it's okay, i needs moneys, and if anything, i can make time during the weekdays for myself, right? i hope so. i'd freakin go to the mall on a monday. i'd freakin go out on a wednesday. whatevs .. hahahaha .. when i get a real job, with real money, oh i'm gonna have a blast .. lol .. i just hope i remember the whole, time management shit and i can deal with studying.. then again, i don't even really study nowadays when i should be and i have all the time i want to .. hahaha .. i wish i was as studious as charles, he makes me want to be a better person. [awwww. lol ..]
which reminds me, charles and i finally celebrated valentine's day yesterday .. it was so nice because there weren't like102398210938 couples everywhere when we ate at carraba's [sp?] and we just spent time together outside of school eating pasta in a dimly lit [however romantic] place that had subliminal messages of learn-italian phrases like "i prefer wine" or something. it's been so long since charles and i went on a real date like we used to do a lot in the summer .. but i guess it's true that you just wait a long time and you miss it and then when you go on a date it will be good times =) but one time i got a fortune cookie and the fortune said, "absence makes the heart grow fonder, but presence strengthens it" and i really liked it .. because i see charles everyday, and it's really nice, and i like how we just sit in the library and study here and there, and it's good it keeps my mind on school, but then when we really go on dates, it's really special and memorable. but i mean.. all my dates with charles are memorable. even if i don't recall them all immediately .. lol. sometimes it's hard to hang out on the weekends nowadays because school is so hectic, and if/when i start working then that's even less time, but i guess i have to focus and prioritize my life and stuff like that and it's comforting to know that he supports me and isn't upset that there might be less time to be together and he tells me to go after opportunities for my career and stuff like that. like i've been saying, i guess i'm just scared to grow up. haha
anyways, drug delivery is waiting for me and i'm still here listening to robin thicke's cd and i didn't even finish typing this yet .. lol .. and i have a bunch of gift cards that long to be spent. but on what besides sky high black stilettos? sky high stillettos/pumps in other colors? perhaps! and my mom reorganized 5 years of pictures in 5 albums .. that's roughly 1000 pictures, literally! oh the memories. i miss everyone i hung out with in high school .. now they are off doing their own thing in different parts of the country. i miss all my cotillion people, they were so much fun. i was such a dork in high school, lol .. i thought i was the shit. and apparently i'm not! LOL .. but it's funny that i do look 90% the same like i did in high school .. minus the flab that has accumulated in my gut. oh running! oh gym! oh gym for lent. lol ..

anywhos, this is the end! i really have to drug delivery at least once through before i sleep .. while i watch sex and the city .. nyahahaha .. catch all you lovely kids later! i hope you had as great a valentine's day as i did. minus the whole, snow and ice and exams thing. hehe

[[edit]] i was looking through my old xanga and i came across this thing i took a long time ago .. i wanted to see if my answers changed ..

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

mmmmm .. a little. hehe.

<3 to:
best friend jackie; hehe yes! i am smiling =) and i smell prettyful too! ^_^
star; thanks for visiting my blog! =)

you can be my superman save me here i am

so as usual, most of my pharmacy classmates are burning the midnight oil studying everything and anything they can get their hands on, meanwhile, i'm sitting here like the procrastinator that i am writing in my blog. haha. today is my boyfriend's 21st birthday, he is so special, and wonderful, lol, and going to celebrate where every 21-year-old dreams of going for their birthday--the bar! joke .. =) but anyways, yeah, he really is at the bar while i'm here at home because i won't be old enough yet to join him for another -- 10.5 months. which is okay with me, i'm okay with the forced sobriety that i have to encounter due to being underage .. albeit just 1 year underage. i was complaining to my mom about it, about how i'm always too young to do anything and the last to do everything. and she was like, "why are you in such a rush to grow up?" and i thought, yeah, she's right .. why am i in a rush? sooner or later, it'll be time for me to make decisions and have to fend for myself and *gasp* pay bills and stuff! and have a real job! it is scary to finally encounter that stage in my life .. or at least, preparing to be in it. some young people say they want to do really stupid things before they grow up because they know that once the ripe age hits, you have to be an adult and you can't do those crazy things anymore.. this i find true but false at the same time, because for me, i don't want to be looking back on my youth and regret some of the stupid things i did. i already have regrets and i'm only 20 years old. i want to look back and be able to say that i was smart, that i wasn't a dumbass and made truly irrational decisions .. because in the end, if you don't decide now when you're young, when you get older, how will you know what's right? this is not to say that what my friends do is wrong, because it's not, a lot lot lot of my friends are really responsible. [heller, i'm in a class of anal-retentive people who feel that studying 24-7 is the only way to live. joke supersam! joke carissa! joke viv! joke phil, rich, and raj =)] but in all honesty, it really is hard to find that balance of fun and responsibility. like right now, it would be really really responsible of me to re-read all of my notes and finish re-writing my pathophysiology. but at the same time, it would be really really relaxing if i took a step back and write in my blog. true? exactly. i guess this is where my impatience comes in, i want to be able to have all of the freedom of making my own money and being able to go to the bar and stuff like that but i fail to see the amount of experience, hard work, and studying that has to get my ass there. sometimes when i really think about it, i think college is by far the most awkward period of my life. in grammar school, and even in high school, being so sheltered helped me to focus on my work, and i didn't have to change much, with the exception of coming out of my shell personality wise. but i knew i was incapable of supporting myself or having a career. by the end of college, people kind of expect you to do both. and hopefully, i'll be ready to do that. hopefully! but for now, i guess i just have to enjoy my year of being 20 .. even though i feel really young, whenever i look at my godchildren i always feel old .. because sooner or later i am going to have kids too.. oh snap! but for now, while i have the opportunity to successfully waste time and write in my blog about growing up and maturing, i might as well take it. haha. and i guess it really is time for me to do that whole studying thing .. damn, here i go, falling to the man. haha .. anyways, be easy ladies and gentlemen, and have a good night =)

special ♥ to charles because it is his 21st birthday .. i love you dear!

<3 to:
star; thank you so so much for the lovely comment! it really made my day when i read it =) i hope you have a great day!
bestfriend jackie; you are the B-E-S-T. thanks for letting me hopelessly call you 102938109238 times. you know you can organize with me anytime =)

does that make me crazy? possibly

when i was walking in school today i had the sudden urge to title a post with this and write something .. there have been too many emotions to count that have run through my body within a span of 4 days and i feel emotionally drained. i don't really know how to explain myself -- i've called about 4 different people about 4 different times each and each time i've cried enough tears to fill the nile river. i woke up with swollen eyes on saturday and my mom thought it was because i overslept. and i cry, sometimes not just because i am sad, but i cry because i am in love. sometimes i think i am a fool for crying so many tears, because my mom tells me to fight -- be strong, don't cry baby, you have to fight. but when i close my eyes they burn like a million suns. and when i open them it's like waterfalls. being in love was like being in pharmacy, i thought, it hurts so much but it's so worth it. i don't want to turn my back on it. and i think, i am going insane. but what is love without madness? what is love without pain? it's like, what is good without evil or sadness without joy? someone i love is hurting. and when someone i love is hurting, i hurt also. because all i want is for them to be happy. all i want is to take away the pain. i want to be like MYMP so "tell me where it hurts" and i'll do my best to make it better. and then when i can't do anything i feel helpless and sad because .. someone i love is still in pain. is still hurting. some people say it is not worth to be in something that continues to hurt because you are only causing yourself more pain. but i would cry a million more tears to know that someone still loves me. i would cry a million more tears to know that someone i love is going to be okay. mary says that i should be strong enough to let go, but i don't know if i am. because i am scared. i want to hold on so tight and never ever let go. instead, i want to hold on.. i want to hold on and fight for my love. i will not just turn around and let go. i will not give up on it. even though people are like, leave it up to chance. but chance doesn't always do anything. i want to fight for my love. i want to have a say in this matter. and then i feel like crying because again, i am in love. i am so scared to lose something so important to me. something that means a lot to me. no, i will not lose it. i refuse. i am holding on. i am waiting, as impatient as i am, and i will be here, and fight for anything that needs fighting for. i will not leave. i can't make promises, you don't want me to make promises to you because you think that i am only staying because of a promise. i am staying because i love you. i don't know what words i should be saying. i know i usually say the wrong words, however with the right intentions. or i say the wrong words because i am wrong anyway. but i am trying my best to be strong. for you and for me. i am trying to be strong for us.

the truth about diamonds

so happy belated 2007 everyone, i guess this is the first post of mine for the new year .. i've been trying to come up with a new layout but i guess the truth holds that my best layouts [and blogs] do come when i'm inspired, and right now, in the midst of trying to control my manic-depressive-PMS-moody-fit, i'm compelled to share my thoughts with you, my adoring [albeit small LOL joke =)] public. so although it's a month away, valentine's day is coming.. i know it's really early to be talking about it because "it's so far away" and most people i talk to despise the holiday and/or curse it for being another reason for capitalism to take its course in selling us dozens of delicious chocolates and such .. but i must say.. should i be excited for it? or am i just hyping up something that i shouldn't even be counting on happening? sure, it's the beginning of the year.. and i feel like i'm lacking in the love department for most of this break. but i have to inquire, my lovers and friends, should i be concerned? is it worth the trouble worrying about this? i mean, i know i shouldn't expect anything. gillian and i have gone over this time and time again and the reason i get so irritated is because i am expecting too much from a certain someone. but don't i have the right? doesn't a girl have the right to be romanced? my friend joe always talks to me about his ultimate swoonage--in which he would do the ultimate wine-and-dine for his lovergirl. but my loverboy never speaks about things like that. i mean, i don't ask for much .. i know i'm supposed to be like JLO and "love don't cost a thing" type shit.. but it's like .. i see other couples and they're sweets to the max and deep down inside i want some sweets to the max. sure, PDA is not nice. i'm all for telling people off who are about to sex it up right in front of you. but would it hurt to get a hug or something? or a loving glance? and it's like .. yeah, i know i'm a broke college kid .. and everyone is a broke college kid and all .. but would it hurt to get a little something nice once in a while? i know i'm in pharmacy school working my ass off so that i would be able to afford everything for myself and so i wouldn't have to depend on a man to support me but you know .. i mean .. don't i deserve nice things? like flowers? or something? or something cute and small that reminds person of me that they think they would like me to have? i don't know .. everyone is telling me to have patience, to wait things out .. that this is just a phase and i don't need to be stressing about things because it is my vacation. i know that relationships take work. they take give-and-take and romance and all that stuff. i don't want to just assume things and i know better than to expect things. maybe i'm just .. lonely, bored, something. maybe i'm need of some more diamonds. haha. sometimes, all i want is just to hear "i love you." is that too much to ask? heck, should i even be asking? i am feeling neglected and i don't know what to do about it anymore. sometimes i want to be alone to just get over it but at the same time it feels contrary to the plan. i just want to be thought of. i want the feeling of like .. oh, i thought of you today. i just wanted to give you a call. to me, i feel like things should be intuitive. if someone doesn't sound happy, they are sad. if someone says, i'm hungry, and they are looking at your french fries, they want one. if a girl consistently looks at every diamond necklace in a store, think about getting her one. i know i have a job and all, and a certain someone does not, but at the same time, can we get a little creative here? DO SOMETHING NICE FOR A GIRLFRIEND?! hi, hello. not always the girlfriend who plans the romantic shit. i swear, i might not plan anything for valentine's day. just go home. do nothing. hang out with my mom. is anyone going to stop me? is someone going to plan something for me? i know he's not perfect, i know i shouldn't be idealistic .. i'm trying to be realistic, here. fck it, whatevs .. i need some chocolate


<3 to best friend jackie, i love love lover her. =)

dick clark's new year's rockin eve .. almost

hello friends! well, yeah, it's a little early for me to be doing my end-of-the-year recap .. after all, there are still 4 more days left in 2006, but hey, i want to be able to get my recap in before i forget and then it'll already 2007! i have a wedding to go to tomorrow so that already leaves out tomorrow and plus, i can do my picture recap of xmas weekend and plus plus i can um.. do another survey! hahaha. well, before i get to that, i had to help gillian register for MCATs and it kind of made me realize how nice it is to be in pharmacy school and i don't even have to register for no test or anything .. man, i didn't get my scores yet for 2 classes .. hopefully i passed; i'm kind of relieved i passed almost all my classes .. just waiting for one more. MAN! anyways, it's pretty nice doing nothing but at the same time i was pretty bored today and i wasted a whole day doing nothing but at least i got to paint a painting ^_^

xmas was okay this year, it was pretty good cuz i got to spend it w/ all my famjams and even my homie and especially charles! =) homie made cool ass cupcakes and such .. and when you reach 20, you realize xmas isn't about you anymore and you'll be lucky if you get 1 present you really wanted .. unlike when you're a kid you get all the presents. 's okay .. i can't wait to be the ninang that gives the awesomest present ever .. ehehehehe .. sadly, i didn't get nintendo ds lite for nothings [i wasn't expecting anyone to get it for me *ahem* LOL but charles said to brad that he wasn't made of money and that he's unemployed .. LOL LOL LOL .. ] anywhoos, maybe, when the price goes down and the backorders are done being processed and if i still want it weeks from now, maybe i'll go and buy it for myself after i pay off all my bills i got from christmas .. oh, my pocket. lol .. well, here is some delightful picture form i could share w/ you to explain the rest of christmas =)

christmas tree cake with sparkly candles! yay!

blow out all the candles, i forgot to make a wish haha

2nd birthday party w/ kuya dodong and abbygail

christmas eve/25th anniversary party with charles! and child in picture playing war.. hello child! =)

beautiful village with charles's lego train that got into a train wreck .. luckily, no lego people were hurt ^_^

mary and i's annual xmas photo

michelle's new favorite cd -- super fuzzy animals! LOL LOL LOL ..

mafioso cousins .. and this isn't even all of us

what a hottie .. ;) look at that smile! :) :)

and what an awesome sweater!

wells .. here is my recap for 2006!

1. What did you do in 2006 that you'd never done before? i went to nyc and i overnighted with a bunch of people and spent 24+ hours wiht manjams .. =)
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? hellllll yeah! i promised to stop biting my nails and i did! wooooo!
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? ate did! yayayay jenna !
4. Did anyone close to you die? no .. not this year, thankfully.
5. What countries did you visit? well i went to las vegas .. i can't leave the country since my passport expired .. yikes!
6. What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006? my drive to learn and succeed. and to embrace my career path .. or at least, get ready to finish. lol
7. What date from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? 656, gillian's 21st, jenna's birthday
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? that would have to be being able to go to nyc with my friends and overnight there .. OH! OH! driving to sayreville! BY MYSELF! GO ME!
9. What was your biggest failure? oh that would be pharmacy practice management
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? well i'm feeling kind of sick now and i got this big ass fever in the spring
11. What was the best thing you bought? that would be denim dunk cl's son!
12. Whose behavior merited celebration? mary because she graduated from high school! yay!
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? mines did because i failed a lot of exams
14. Where did most of your money go? that would be the vending machine in school as well as the convenience store as well as going out with charles
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? omg omg going out on my first official official date date with dinner and a movie straight up
16. what song will always remind you of 2006? omg what was that song .. i heard it all summer. i think it was "ridin" by chamillionaire .. as well as "for the love" by drew sidora and mario and and buttons by pussycat dolls and and my love by justin timberlake!
17. Compared to this time last year, are you: happier or sadder? i think i'm happier but at the same time i'm also more tired as hell
18. What do you wish you'd done more of? studying, of course. always!
19. What do you wish you'd done less of? mmmm .. studying .. AHAHAHa
20. How will you be spending Christmas? i spent it at my homie's house, at charles's house, at st. matthew's, at mary's house, at lisa's in long island, and at charles's house again!
21. How will you be spending New Years? ninang fely's -- it never changes. lol .. but me and mary plan on making that different sometime soon!
22. Did you fall in love in 2006? yes. :)
23. How many one-night stands? hgahahaha .. make that, 120938103 night stands .. JOKE
24. What was your favorite TV program? law and order! and csi! and i recently got into ugly betty
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? ummm .. freak out guy! he is so so so annoying
26. What was the best book you read? i don't read books anymore, i read powerpoint packets lol
27. What was your greatest musical discovery? charles's slow jam cd
28. What did you want and got? the hat i got for xmas from mary and denim dunks
[what happen to question 29?]
30. What was your favorite film of this year? ummm .. talladega nights was funny =)
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? i turned 20 and i took my pharm care final! =[ and then i had christmas tree shaped ice cream cake and i bought myself a cute sweater :)
32. What one thing that would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? straight As, darling .. but other than that, i'm pretty happy with what i got this year =)
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006? i would describe it as looking like a bum for the last half of the year and completely taking advantage of still being a "teenager" and dressing like one .. but at the same time, becoming more fashion forward thanks to my best friend in the universe!
34. What kept you sane? charles kept me sane! and my mom .. though my mom drove me crazy at the same time
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? lol, the victoria secret models .. haha
36. What political issue stirred you the most? ummm i feel like i should know this
37. Who did you miss? best friend in the universe!
38. Who was the best new person you met? that would be too cool for school jopapa even though we knew each other from high school we didn't start talking til now. OMG, did i mention i met charles this year too? haha
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006: embrace your path in life; don't come in angry. things never go as planned.. so always be ready for the unexpected. i'm growing up and it's time for me to experience new things and be the young adult that i am. and, of course, love moves in mysterious ways .. haha
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year. "just tell me where it hurts now baby, and i'll do my best to make it better" .. as well as the lyrics from the songs that remind me of this year; like "ain't got to do nothing crazy, cuz all i want you to do is be my love"

and that's it! =)

<3 to ren for being the only one to leave me a comment! you rock!

mojo dojo // go shorty it's your birthday

"kristine" (10:25:23 PM): HEY U!!!
"kristine" (10:25:26 PM): HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!!!!
angelica (10:25:43 PM): HEY!
angelica (10:25:49 PM): THANKS KRISTE I HEART YOU!
"kristine" (10:25:45 PM): i was like to my friend
"kristine" (10:25:46 PM): OMG
"kristine" (10:25:48 PM): WHAT DAY IS IT TODAY
"kristine" (10:25:49 PM): lol
"kristine" (10:25:57 PM): and im like SHIT I GOTTA TELL MY FRIEND HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

nicole (10:22:39 PM): happy birthday ang!
angelica (10:23:14 PM): thanks nicole! =)
nicole (10:23:26 PM): how's it being 20?
nicole (10:23:27 PM): lol.

Juliet (10:26:03 PM): happy birthdayyyy!
angelica (10:26:26 PM): THANKS!
angelica (10:26:28 PM): =)

ian (11:14:50 PM): hey you
ian (11:14:53 PM): happy birthday!
angelica (11:15:18 PM): thanks ian! =)

so of course, today was my birthday! =) and, of course, it goes without saying, that write a little entry in my blog for my birthday! ^_^ now .. let's do it in delightful survey form! =)

Happy Birthday Survey
About the Bday Girl
Today's Date:	december 21, 2006
How old did you turn?:	i turned 20!
How old do you feel?:	i feel like, 20 .. i guess .. i can't believe i'm this old. lol
Where are you today?:	at home, typing up this junks for my blog heeh
Going to do anything special?:	well first i took my final exam in pharm care .. boo! then i went to the mall and had ice cream and bought a sweater .. and i had some lovely people over for an intimate gathering filled with a cake shaped like an xmas tree and twister dance dvd .. LOL
With whom?:	my mom, dad, charles, christine, mary, brian, gabe, mike, ate, jenna, jeremy, jenn, ninang fely, ninong joven, auntie josie, and uncle arthur .. and gillian in the AM and sam later on getting coldstone at the mall =)
Who was the first to tell you Happy bday today?:	why my homie christine, of course!
Do you love this person?:	to the MAXXX!
What are they getting for you?:	welllll she got me this awesome t-shirt from my FAVE FAVE candy store in NYC!!
The day you were born
What day of the week was it?:	ummmm .. sunday? im not sure
Did anything exciting happen that day?:	uhhh .. i was born?
Really? Wow give us the story::	haha .. i was born in jersey city
How much did you weigh?:	as much as an average baby
Who was at the hospital?:	my mom, and dad, and the nurses and doctors and my aunts and uncles
Did you already have big brothers/sisters?:	nope and i don't have any .. =X
Birthday Wishes
Who is the person you wish could spend your bday with you but they can't?:	GILLIAN .. but she is on a hot date today with sean! but it's okie cuz i saw her already =)
What big ticket gift are you wishing for?:	nintendo ds lite .. or or or A CHOCOLATE FOUNTAIN!
What are you going to wish for when you blow out the candles?:	i don't even remember making a wish .. i was trying to but i got distracted by my godson. LOL
What is your wish for the coming year?:	staying in pharmacy school .. and maintaining my sanity. lol
Yay! its my birthday!!!
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well, that was my 20th birthday in a nutshell .. not too eventful, and i kind of wanted it that way .. cuz i've been so stressed from school and etc i just wanted to chill at home and wrap presents. lol. anywho .. i better get back to that .. it's almost christmas! yay!

<3 to:
anonymous; thanks for visiting my site again.. from your favorite pimple girl `;P
the homie; thanks for always having my back! i love you to the max! =)
breathing mechanisms of the fish gillian; thanks for leaving me 2 comments! i'm glad you like my entries and my picture with charles that i took in the library =) i hope your hot date was hot hot hot just like your hot red dress and i hope you have a great time in the philippines! =D

p.s. more will be updated later when i put pics and etc. heeh k bye!

In Over My Head

okay so yeah, i should be studying for pharmy pharm care -- and instead i would rather blogger, because i am lame, because pharmy pharm care is the gay-est shiiiiet in the entire world and i know i should should care about it because heller! i am a pharmacist-in-training and i deal with drugs all day every day. but come on now, ladies and gentlemen, i am going to be looking this shit up when i get older. or telling my little underlings to do all this shit for me. nahahahaha. this is so so so LAME-O!! ugh. one hundred UGHs. anywhoo, it has been a hot minute since i wrote a blog, so i thought it would be a nice time to write something .. it doesn't take me too long, and maybe i finally had something to write! instead of some bs entry that i usually write because i feel bad because i didn't have anything to say. but anyways, you know, these past couple of weeks it has been pretty hard.. actually after thanksgiving has been pretty hard .. december always has a way of kicking my ass. when i was driving home tonight, it was really clear and cold.. i was trying to look for a shooting star in the sky but unfortunately i was not lucky enough to catch one yet. and there was some commercial on the radio that was talking about how whack of a year 2006 was .. and i was thinking about it and i was like .. yeah, this year was pretty whack! like, okay, no, there were definitely a lot of good parts [AKA SUMMER] but come on. the end of sophomore year academically was a beeeeyatch! you know, i came out of my orgo/systems finals thinkin i was an absolute dumbass. of course, and then i had to take that philo summer class .. yeah, i know, i made dean's list and shit like that .. *POOF* that's gone! ahahha. like this semester totally started off jacked up. it really did! everyone is like mad messed up academically and everything is just biting our ass in the wrong ways! what is going on! even though it's not new year's yet my new year's resolution is to walk into my next semester [crosses fingers] with open arms and open mind. so that i can love love love this stuff! sigh. when i was walking down to the dining hall to eat with my pharmy pharm friends i was thinking about how i was trying my best to stay positive and happy .. because even though there is all this crap and i am tired i am trying to stay positive. charles said that he does not want me to depend on him to be "jolly" and that every time we are together i am always so "jolly." well jolly makes me think of santa! and then i told him that i am jolly even with my mom and of course when i eat chocolates. but charles, being the smarty pants he is, says that he does things that chocolate can not do for me. oh gillian, she would be proud. did i mention that one time gillian and i did a debate on whether boys were better than chocolate? it was mad funny and it was for our school project. gillian, she is such a silly silly lady. who puts silly ideas into my head. LOL .. anyways, i am glad i am in a much better better mood than the past couple of weeks because that was just bad. really bad! i do not want to get into details but let us just say it was bad. and, since finals are coming up, i feel a little sadness that i can not do much hanging outs because i have to S-T-U-D-Y. sadness! but that's okay. i hope i can hang outs a lots after my exams! everything is going by so fast .. oh goodness! when i was making my list for xmas wantings [charles' brother ask me and i was like .. "?" lol] and i wanted a chocolate fountain! but then i was thinking, i wouldn't really use it! oh but it is so so so awesome! but if you would like to know, i would like nintendo ds lite thank you very much! but if you ask me, i am getting a spatula for christmas! i am getting a spatula i am getting a spatula i am getting a spatula i am getting a spatula i am getting a spatula i am getting a spatula i am getting a spatula! eheheheh. anyways, since i feel kind of bad that i wasn't really studying and i was procrastinating .. here is something for you to know!

if you plan on taking trovafloxacin for your nosocomial pneumonia, note that there is a black box warning that could be serious enough to require a liver transplant. so it should not be used for more than 2 weeks.

ciprodex is used for otitis media.

avoid taking your fluoroquinolones with antacids.

when taking cialis, the drug is no substitute for sexual stimulation and in order to get an erection, you have to do the damn thing. it is more different chemically and has a longer duration.

migranes can be triggered by food and environmental events, and taking imitrex or relpax is usually the choice of treatment. beta blockers and antiseizure medications are also propylactic for migraines.

k bye!

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anonymous; who left me 2 comments about my pimply face -- thanks for visiting my site! `;P no beef, go ahead, i know i gots pimples. i may not be adriana lima but dammit i know i could put it down. ^_^
bestfriend jackie; the best! absolutely! yayayay! wish you could have been @ thanksgiving for the lumpias heehee
my "admirer"; thanks for the positive comments! i really appreciate it! ^_^ it kind of was the inspiration for me to write a blog .. heehee! =)